Reckless Truth

You screwed up

After walking around for a few hours, visiting everywhere around here. I find myself at the beach once again. It's a seriously good place to be alone and think, especially late at night.

I'm not sure I really wanna think about what happened.

Luke actually cheated on me.

After every fucking thing we've been through, I mean pregnant with his kid.

And he doesn't even know. What the hell am I gonna do?

"Wanna talk about it?" I hear a familiar voice say. I watch out of the corner of my eye as Alex sits beside me. I notice that Reggie and Bobby are with him.

"Not really" I say, pulling my knees to my chest. They stay quiet, all sitting down beside me. All I listen to is the crash of ocean waves.

"It's just messed up" Bobby starts. I look at him and he continues "I mean, what he did. How could he do that to you?" I shrug and look back at the ocean.

It's so beautiful in the moonlight, it's magical.

"Julie, I know you don't wanna talk about it but we can't just leave you here. What do you wanna do?" Alex ask.

"Honestly...... sleep" I say.

"Then that you will do" He says, standing up. Him and Bobby help me up. As soon as I'm up to my feet, Reggie plunges at me. He hugs me for a minute and I relax a little.

"Now Reg, you don't wanna hurt the poor girl. Let her go" Bobby says patting his shoulder. Reggie let's me go and I give him a slight smile.

Maybe I should tell the guys.

Should I?

"Guys, I umm I kinda have something important to tell y'all" I sutter. They all look at me and I feel my nerves start to rise.

Julie, these are you friends. Not just friends, your family.

"I'm pregnant" I blurt out.

All 3 of their jaws drop in shock.

"Like-like with a- a baby" Reggie says, his eyes practically popping out of their sockets. I nod softly and his face erupts into a smile.

"I'm gonna be an uncle, I'm gonna be an uncle!" He exclaims jumping around in a circle.

"Luke, he's the father right?" Bobby ask, looking at the ground.

"Of course, I was gonna tell him on Christmas" I mumble.

"Let's get you to sleep and we can talk about it in the morning" Alex says. He starts to make his way to his car and I gotta say, I'm a little shocked.

I was expecting Alex to freak out or something. Maybe give me a lecture or brag about he's gonna be an awesome uncle.

I was expecting, ya know something. Some kind of reaction.

The drive to Alex's house is quiet. We drop off the other guys at their houses before we go home.

At Alex's house
"Is it okay if I take a shower?" I ask him.

"Of course Julie, what's mine is yours"

"I'm glad you think that because I'm also in need of PJ's" I smile at him. He rolls his eyes jokingly and goes to his drawers, pulling out a t-shirt and pj pants.

"Your the best Lex" I say grabbing the clothes. I kiss his cheek and go into the bathroom.

As I'm showering, I think about Luke. I think about everything. I mean my whole future, I'm gonna be raising a kid alone.

How the hell am I gonna do that?

I walk downstairs, brushing my hair and go into the living room where Alex is making up the couch.

"Thank you for letting me stay here" I say, sitting on the edge of the couch.

"Your not staying here, your sleeping in my room"

"Lex, I can't take your bed" I say, grabbing the pillow from his arms "the couch is more than fine"

"Julie. I can't let sleep here. I mean in your condition"

"My condition?" I snap.

"Your pregnant Julie and you didn't even to tell me" he snaps back  "you could have told me, I could have been there for you" He says, sitting down on the couch and burying his head in hands. I sit beside him, laying my head on his arm.

"Your right, I should have told you. I was just scared" I tell him. He sits up and wraps an arm around me. My eyes start to drift shut and I struggle to keep them open.

"I'm exhausted, come on" he says, pulling me up with him. We walk upstairs and get into his giant bed. I stare out the window, thinking again about what I have to face when I wake up tomorrow.

"Julie, you'll be okay and you won't be alone.
Not through any of it" Alex whispers to me. I smile as I drift off.

The next day
Luke's POV:
"Reggie, what the hell am I supposed to do?" I ask, panicking.

I really screwed up this time.

"I don't know Luke. I mean we saw her last night and she was just like broken. I'm not sure there's much you can do"

"I can't just not do anything. I have to explain or apologize or-"

"Maybe it's better to let it be" he says finally "you screwed up and I know you know that. But she's hurting and you can't keep doing this"

"I'm not doing anything. I mean-"

"Stop Luke. I'm serious. You are doing this. This all started from some stupid dare in High school. I mean it's gone so far from that. She moved heaven and earth to be with you but your flaky. When things aren't working out for you, you bail or whatever" Reggie says.

Damn, that was a punch to the heart.

"But I-I love her"

"If you really love her, you want her to be happy whether it's with you or not. Right?" He says.

Damn it, damn it, damn it.

I do love her and I do want her to be happy.

I hate when he's right but he's so right.

What have I done for her? Broke her heart a thousand times, maybe we aren't destined to be after all.

A/n: REGGIE BE SPEAKIN TRUTHS OVER THERE.

I love you so so much -R