Take Me As I Am

Don't Tell Anyone!

*Well this chapter three of my story. This chapter well contain some but not MANY SEXUAL CONTENT! So read if you want to or don't if you will feel offended. I've seen I'm starting to get some reads so that's good , for now. I think this chapte isn't going to be pretty long but, I'm making longer than the first 2. So enjoy! VOTE , COMMENT, & FAN !*

I put my hand on my face. Feeling th heat that is upon my face. Did Jake eally just put his hands on me? No i must be dreaming, becasue that Jake i kneew wouldn't never do that.

But wait.....I was wrong.

Swiftly coming from my thinking, I suddenly asked Jake, "Did you just slap me?"

He had a "well obviously" face and beyond that, in his eyes, I could see that ange, the hurt, and well the miscomfort. Then he says with an anger filling in him, turning red,

"Obviously you stupid asshole!"

Those words that suddenly came out of his mouth startled me. This Jake I'm looking at is the not the one I truly know. It was like someone just sudddenly came upon him, and transfomd him to a totally different person and I'm not liking it. Right now I'm having flashbacks of how we used to get along, how we always did things together. No its just slowly drifting away.

Trying to fight back ears, I slowly say "Why Jake, why?"

All he did was laugh and then suddenly he says, "Tori, I'm sick and tired of my friends asking me 'Did you smashed her yet' or 'Did y'all have sex yet'. I'm tierd of being making fun of. I thought maybe after at least two years together maybe you reconsiderd us having sex. But no! All you keep saying is 'I want to wait until I'm eighteen.' Well sadly I cant wait that long. I'm not going to wait on you hand and foot just bcause I want what I can't have. So I'm going to have sex tonight and I'm not taking no for an answer!"

I'm laying stunned, my eyes wide open, tears falling from my eye. But before I can answer, it was already too late. He already started taking of my skirt. Ripping My shirt, popping each of the buttons off. Then came my bra, than lastly my panties. He started to take his clothes off and his undergarments. Everytime I would push him off me, he would either slapped or punch my face hard enoug for me to wince.

He started to force himself into my area. all the while I'm screaming "HELP!" But wait Tori, nobody can't hear you because we are home alone.

He forced kisses on my lips. Those kisses were very much agressive, not the same like it used to be. When I look at him all I see was evil in his eyes and then an on and off smirk to his lips. Then I blacked out.....

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I'm thinking if I open my eyes, all these events that I thought happened would just a dream. But when I open my eyes, I see a sleeping Jake next to me, naked.

I tried getting up, but the pain was just to unbearable.

Now I'm thinking, 'Wow did I really just lose my virginity to my boyfriend, who raped me?' I couldn't remember anything because I blacked out because the pain was just too much. I really can't possibly believe my boyfriend of alomost 3 years, (on December 21st), just raped me. this can't be real! Oh my goodness, let me gt out of here before he wakes up and asks for more, which I'm not willing to give to him.

I forced myself out of the bed. Put on my undergarments, and then my skirt. Thank God I had an under shirt on under my shirt because he total ripped up my shirt. I grabbed my bag, notmaking a sound and ran out the room, to the front door, and ran all the way home. without looking back

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I burst through the front door with a worried mother calling out to me. I didn't want to stop, but I knew I had to because that was mother and it felt right. I soon turned around, then my mother gasped.

"Tori, what happened to your face," the worried look on my face killed me. I just now remember that my face was all bruised up, because of when Jake would hit me when I tried to stop him. I didn't want to tell her but I can't keep away from her.

"Jake..." that's all I could say really, the reast wouldn't come out.

"What did Jake do, honey?" Well you see, my mother really didn't like Jake. Way long before Jake and I started going out, would always tell her how disgusting he was with girls, and how he wouldn't treat them with respect. But she only approved him because I told her I really loved him, so she gave him a try just for me.

"Well .. h-he sorted... um kinda raped me," softly as I coud possibly say it.

"He WHAT !"

"Mom calm down, please don't do or say anything, please mom," right now my mom had the phone in her hand I guess trying to call the police.

"Why shouldn't I? This boyfriend of yours tried and surely did rape MY DAUGHTER, MY ONLY DAUGHTER! Why wouldn't I do something about it?"

This is the most I hav seen my mother so angery before. I did want her to tell anyone because I still loved Jake. Yes, I still do love him. I really can't give up on him only on just one mistake. I really want to finish my high school life with Jake, go to the same college as him, get married with him, have kids with him, and eventually grow old with him. I wouldn't let him go jus one bit. Even if it hurts.

I must have really have gone deep into my thoughts, when I saw my mother hanged up on the phone with some unknown person.

"Mom, I told you not to tell anyone!" I couldn't believe my mom un and tell someone after I told her not to tell anyone.

"Tori, I was just talking to friend of mine that's a counselor, and sh;s willing to talk to you about what just happened. She can't tell anyone because that wouldn't be really what a counselor would be all about. Since obviously you don't no one to know."

I relseased a sighed of reeased that I must have been holding in. "But mom are you sure this a good idea, she could tell someone," I said with worry worry in my eyes.

My mom came to me, rubbing her soft hands acoos my bruised left eye and queitly says, "I promise sweetheart, she wouldn't tell a soul." she said bringing me to a hug.

Well I let's just hope she doesn't.....

*Picture of Tor's Mom on the side >>>>

*Wow, pretty intense right? well i hope this chapter is longe than the other ones. In the next chapter, we will have Jakes P.O.V. in it so we can see what he's thinking. well, VOTE, FAN, & COMMENT!!!!*