It's Just Pretend ✔️

Chapter 12

I woke up to my fuzz ball biting my toes. He meowed as I looked at him. Shifting out of my comfortable position I jump out of bed and open the door for Rajah.

He immediately runs to the kitchen where his food was set up. He also had a little jungle gym my dad had bought for him a year ago. I rubbed my eyes and closed the door again before getting back into my old bed.

I cuddled up to Damien putting an arm on his bare shoulder. I couldn't get back to sleep so I just stare at him. He was so warm and peaceful. Scooting up a bit more, I move the hair out of his face.

Why couldn't this be real? Why was it pretend? What's so complicated about us dating? He says he likes me and I told him I like him. So why can't it be real? My hand stays on his cheek as my smile falters.

Am I being stupid? Am I letting him do the thing I told myself I wouldn't let him do? Besides that first thing, he hasn't done anything sexual with me. Maybe he's trying to get my trust first.

I shake my head before hiding it in his neck. He's nicer than Henry, and I enjoy the attention and affection he gives me. Maybe I should just let him. Rajah likes him and I wouldn't have to be lonely.

A warm hand goes over mine and I move my head from his shoulder to see his tired eyes staring back at me. "Good morning Darling" he whispers and I smile as he grabs and kisses my hand.

"Good morning" I answer cuddling closer to him. He hugs me and I look up kissing him. "I like this" he whispers and I nod closing my eyes. I like it too, I would feel less guilty if it was real.

My phone goes off and I groan turning out of his grip. I reach for it, the brightness killing me as I look at my notifications. I had my social media's pretty much silenced. So it had to have been someone or something important.

I sat up, Damien keeping his arms around my waist. "Pictures are ready" I hum and he shifts with a groan before sitting up. I saved all of them before going to Instagram.

He puts his chin on my shoulder as I look through them. "I'm going to pick ten, which ones do you like?" I ask and he takes the phone out of my hand going through them.

"I think you look good in them all," he tells me and I shake my head. "Thank you, but I'm talking about both of us. Is there a certain one you don't want me to post?" I asked and he shakes his head.

"No I'm good with them all" he continues and I go through the pictures again. I picked one of us hugging, there was us just talking, the one where I held his hands, one of him putting his arm around me. Cute things like that. I saved the one of him kissing my forehead and then us kissing for last.

"We should probably think of an anniversary date" I laugh and he nods. "I moved here in November with my boyfriend aka you, and we started dating in October but I had known you previously. Give me a random number" I lay my head back to look at him.

"Five" he answers and I nod. We started dating October fifth, it is now June twentieth, so we've been dating for eight months, sound right?" I ask and he nods leaning over me. "Can I kiss you?" He still asks for my permission. Could he really be using me?

"Yes you can" I answer anyways and he gives me a quick peck. "It sounds perfect" he answers my previous worry. "Okay," I huff before getting ready to type out my life-changing caption.

Meet Damien my boyfriend of 8 months. "Short and simple, that seem alright?" I ask giving him the phone. "Yup" he laughs and I take it back hovering my finger over the post button. I groan before finally just pressing it.

My heart stops as I throw my phone onto the bed. My phone was lighting up but they were silent because they weren't important. "I don't want to look" I cry and he chuckles rubbing my back.