It's Just Pretend ✔️

Chapter 42

"You're saying we can live together? In our own house?" I ask my friend and he nods. "We're going to be adults soon and then we'll start your super hero business up! You'll be a hero and I'll be your genius!" He cheers, I just nod.

"Can I be a genius as well?" I ask looking around his room sore and tired from my fight. "In the future... the far... far future" he chuckles and I smile laying onto his bed to stare at the ceiling.

"So does that mean we get to be friends for even longer?" I ask looking over to him. "Yes friends for longer, I made a promise you wouldn't have to be alone anymore and I'm going to keep that promise. Well I'm not joining you on the battle field" he reminds me and I nod grabbing an ice pack from the nightstand.

I put it under my back enjoying the coolness of it. "I like that plan- thank you Ian for believing in me" I smile at the cheesy moment in the movie. "Of course- there was no way in hell I was giving up on you becoming a super hero"

There's loud buzzing sound before a clamp. "That's a wrap! We've done it!" Mylo shouts and everybody erupts into cheers as I sit up from the bed. I smiled but couldn't bring myself to cheer with them.

Even with the others cheering loudly the world seemed to be so quiet. Jaydn grabs my arm trying to yank me up, so I stand giving him what he wants as he hugs me. "Where's Damien! You guys should be celebrating!" He yells before letting go. Running straight to Mylo the two immediately meet at the lips for a hungry kiss as I look away frozen.

They just expected him to be here because he was my boyfriend. He loves me and he'd tried to do that for me. I was lying to myself too. I thought maybe he'd come and surprise me. Tell me it's alright and that he'll work a way around it. I'd tell him I love him and then we would both find a way out of this mess... together.

Forcing myself to stumble off set, I just wanted to go home. I pushed through excited people. Some were crying with excitement others dance to music that wasn't existent. I made eye contact with random people I had grown close to. There eyes flickering with some hint of worry before going back to partying.

I just flush through the crowds of people some occasionally hugging me as I look at them filled with sadness. I knew they weren't comforting me but it still felt like it.

I finally made my way through one group of people and sighed as I saw how filled the studio was. There was flashing and I cringe- is paparazzi here? How can I sneak out. God they're so annoying. Fuck everything. I can't go and complain to him about paparazzi and he isn't here giving me good ideas on how to get past them.

"Z!" Somebody shouts and I suck in a deep breath before turning around. "Z! Where are you going?" Jadyn laughs running over Mylo trailing behind him getting stopped by many people as the congratulated and thanked him.

"I'm going home" I answer honestly and he stands still a worried expression on his face. "We finished the movie! Aren't you happy!?" He asks smiling again. "Who's not happy?" Mylo asks before looking up to me. "Did you not like the last scene- we can redo it again, if you'd like?" He asks ready to yell for everyone to get to their places.

"No- we're done the movies over. The last scene was great" I tell them and he nods relaxing a bit. "Well are you okay?" He asks again and I shake my head. "Nah- I'm just tired" I wave them off but their faces don't seem to believe me.

Finally Jadyn's face goes into one of shock before he smiles. I smile just seeing him happy. He's really become such a good friend. "What?" Mylo asked looking between us.

"Z is probably going to go celebrate with Damien"  he chuckles as my face drops. "Oh I see. Well then have fun with Damien- why don't you just tell him to come here so we can all hangout a bit" he asks and I sigh.

"I'm going home to sleep and that's all" I chuckle trying hard not to just let out a shout of rage. "Mhmm sure- go sleep with Damien you mean" Jadyn teases and I squeeze my eyes shut while grabbing at my pants. I still needed to change out of this outfit.

"Please just stop bringing up Damien" I let out with a sigh and he gives me a confused look before it seems to dawn on him. "Z..." I didn't let him continue and hurried to the dressing room changing.

There's knocking on the door, but I ignore it. "Zachary... how long?" He asks and I let my head hang back so close to crying. I kept quiet and changed quickly. Opening the door, I reveal Jadyn watching me with a worried look.

Mylo was gone getting surrounded by other actors and extras and I just shook my head. "Can we talk about this some other time- I just want to sleep" I whisper and he nods pulling me into another hug. This one more sympathetic.

"Why don't you text me your address or if your not comfortable with that we can meet up somewhere and talk about it? Not today- but when you're ready" he rubs my upper back and I chuckle realizing how short he is compared to me.

"Yeah I'd like that" I manage to choke the words out, trying my hardest not to cry at the moment. "I'm going to go before Mylo gets over here- you can tell him if you want... please try to keep it a secret" I whisper noticing Mylo making his way over to us. He looks back seeing this too. "Of course, go get some sleep" he pushes me away lightly and I nod hurrying towards the exit.

"Mr. Tatton are you excited it's over!?" "Are you going to miss it!?" "What's your next big project!?" I'm flooded with questions by the paparazzi and just keep a straight face walking forward.

"How does Damien feel about your accomplishment! You haven't been seen together in a few weeks!" Someone shouts and I freeze momentarily before hurrying back out of the studio. "Why are you leaving so soon!? Are you not happy with the movie!?" "Why that reaction to my question!?" They continued their pestering as I made my way into my car.

Hiding, I locked the doors before dropping my head onto the steering wheel. "Why is he doing this to me. Why did I let myself fall in love so easily!?" I shout the tears leaving my eyes.

I still need to tell mom, and dad. I should probably tell them it was fake to begin with- or that it was always fake. Maybe I can rant to them about that. I don't think I'll ever fall in love again not for a long while.

Here I am crying my eyes out and he's probably at work going on sweet cute cafe dates, ordering the same smoothie he always does. The one that I refused to try at first but ended up liking a little to much.

I smile at the memory but it then turn to me crying more as I realized all of it was over. I could hear the cameras flashing and sat up from the steering wheel look wide eyed completely surprised for some reason that they would stoop this low to take pictures through my windows.

I quickly attempt to wipe my tears away fumbling to turn the key in the ignition. They continued with their flashing and I huff grabbing my sunglasses. I put the car in drive simultaneously putting my glasses on.

I slowly ease forward not caring who I hit as they all frantically moved to my drivers side to get pictures. Once I was in the free I swerved out of the parking lot, choking on the tears that I was trying to hold in.

I honked the horn at nobody. Just because I was angry and wanted to express that. It felt good telling somebody what had happen even though I hadn't exactly said it yet. Jadyn just assumed.

I should probably text him eventually. For now I really do just want to sleep. I'm just tired. I'm always tired. Half the time I can't sleep anyways, but it's relaxing just staying in bed.

I know it's pathetic but I've been staying in the guest room because everything I look at in ny room reminds me of him. When would I get over him? I just hope it's soon. All emotions for him- I just want them to be turned off.

My brain was thinking like it had before.

"I just want to be alone"