my life story

meeting the one who put me back together

i met lets call him matthew, i met matthew in like late april, when i met him i didnt think he would or could make me feel how i felt. when i met matthew i felt.... healed like i forgot abt jax and i felt loved again, me and matthew were like magnets no matthew where we were or what we were doing we were always near eachother or was right next to each other and all of our freinds made fun of us for it they told us we were magnets and they said it was weird but i didnt wanna lose him he made me feel happy and we stayed freind from late april till the very beginning of may. over that time aiden just stopped talking to me and ghosted me and i didnt care bc i felt complete with matthew, when matthew told me he liked me i was so happy and i told him how i felt abt him and then we started to date, we dated all through may then we got into the 2nd week into summer break. i was at my moms it was june 4th i had a friend tell me that matthew had a freind that was a girl over at his house so i asked him abt it bc earlier that day he told me he just had a freind over he didnt tell me wether it was a boy or girl but my freind found out it was a girl so like i said i asked him abt it andhe got rlly upset/ mad abt it then i asked everyone i knew abt it and they all told me there was a good chance he was cheating, itold him to just text me when she left he didnt text me till late the next day, i told him i didnt care he just had to tell me these things but he had something else in mind, he told me he had to much stuff on his mind and his being distant was him trying to to hurt anybody i said ik i was scared bc im used to being close and him being distant scared me bc everyone does that to me they get distant then leave me  so its scary he said it was so he could think clear which i under stood and i told him take the time he needs and he told me he said i hope you know the means im not with you anymore i told him i understood and i was ok with it and i would be here when or if he needs something, its been almost 2 months now he likes someone and i havent spent 1 day sober since then,