We're all defective

I'm Never Free

Bakugo's POV

I lay on my bed.

I panicked.

They're sure to try and find out what Shinso meant. What made me run. To get soft and angry. I curl in on myself and hug my pillow close. Why did my quirk have to make me go deaf? I hate this. Why can't I stop being such an asshole and just tell them what my quirk has done to me? I reach up and feel my hearing aids, two singular tears rolling down my face. I just want to pull them out. Hope that no one will notice why I've gone so quiet. I sit up and take them out. I click my fingers in front of my ears and hear nothing. No sound. The tears roll more now. It's best this way. No one will have to worry about me talking and getting angry at them for every little thing that they do. No need to hear me rant about how I will be better than All Might. I guess I'll be lucky to be the No. 20 Hero. To be honest, I'll be lucky if I even make the list...

I go to my bathroom and drop my hearing aid into the toilet. I stare at them for a couple of minutes before taking a deep breath and flush them. I watch as they swirl in the bowl but don't go down. I get angrier now, tears burning my eyes. I remove them from the bowl and run into the kitchen, not caring about who was in the common room. I throw the hearing aids into the garbage disposal and press the button. I can't hear if it's working, but I can tell that it is as I feel a large amount of presence on my back.

"Bakugo...? What are you doing...?"

I can't hear anything, just an inaudible muffled sound like my head is under water. But it's still nothing. I feel a hand on my shoulder. I feel myself being slowly turned. I look up with a tear stained face and meet the eyes of Deku. The one and only person that has seen me cry, but never fully break down like what I feel like doing now. I can't help it. I squeeze my eyes shut, the tears are like a river, trying to burst through a damn. My lips quiver. My legs shake and before I knew it; I had collapsed to the ground with uncontrollable sobs. Deku falls with me, looking slightly scared at my current state. I see his lips moving. I see everyone's lips moving. But can't make out a single. Fucking. Sound.

I cry out, not even being able to hear myself. I must've summoned Aizawa-Sensei as he came into eyesight a few seconds after. He kneels before me. I don't know what came over me at that current point as I just fell into his arms and hid my face in his shirt, grabbing it in my hands like a young child would do to their parent.

He rubs circles on my back before making me look in his eyes. He lifts his hands and signed to me.

'Where are your hearing aids?'

'I tried to flush them but it didn't work. I grounded them up in the garbage disposal...'

'Why?'

'I have no chance of being a hero with no hearing.'

'Who told you that?'

'Myself. My thoughts. My Mind.'

'You can be a hero, Bakugo. You just need to prove yourself wrong. I had a feeling that this would happen so I called your mother and she's bringing you a spare pair.'

I nod and look up to see everyone looking at us, at me, with looks of confusion. I look up as a new figure enters the room. The Old Hag and Mr Principal. The Hag walks over to me, making everyone move, and kneels before me. She grabs my face in her hands and wipes away my stray tears. She then places a small kiss on my forehead. I don't even flinch. I watch as she reaches into her handbag and pulls out a little case. Opening it up, I see a pair of plain black hearing aids. She grabs one and places it in my ear and does the same with the opposite one. She helps me up and wraps me in a hug before making her exit. I'm left standing there, staring at the ground. I could hear her heels clacking against the floor. I heard the door close. I can hear my breathing, my heart beat. Everything. A voice breaks through the silence.

"You Ok, Kacchan? I've never seen you act so calm around Aunty...!"

"I'm fine... I just want to be left alone for a while..." There isn't any venom in my words, just pure sadness and only that.

Everyone seems to be concerned for me as this isn't the side I would normally show. The soft, calm and innocent side. One that I didn't even think I had, either.

"Just answer us this; What was all of that about? What is going on?" Fucking Half and Half.

I stop in my tracks. I guess they should know. Especially after what they saw. I make my way to the couch and sit down. Head in my hands. Everyone else joins my side.

"My quirk..."

"What about it?" Soy Sauce asks.

"It's... It's made me... deaf. It's damaged my hearing beyond Recovery Girl's quirk capabilities."

"We're so sorry to hear that, Bakugo-kun...!" Ponytail, Yaoyorozu, sighs with sadness. Fake? I don't know.

"So what were you grinding up, kero?"

"My hearing aids..."

"Why?" Bird boy asks.

I'm at the entrance to the hallway, about to make my way to my dorm.

"Because who wants a deaf hero...?"

I turn and plaster on a fake smile before turning round again, and heading to my room.

-----Time Skip is trying to make Bakugo feel better about himself-----

I sat in class and just stared out the window. I had told everyone about my hearing and a little weight was lifted from my shoulders but I still wasn't feeling at all confident in myself. Even after Aizawa-Sensei told me that it was the first step to proving myself wrong, I could still feel my mental state slowly descending. I don't know what to do. My thoughts have sometimes told me things that I don't want to hear, that I don't want to be right but at the same time, I can't help but agree with them from time to time.

I move my gaze and my eyes land on him. The red head. He was an amazing person. But he was the only person in the class that I haven't told about my predicament. I don't realise that I'm still staring at him until he directs his gaze in my direction. He smiles and flashes his sharp teeth. I blush slightly and turn away.

Why did he make me feel this way? Sure I like him. Sure I would like to be with him every single day of my life, but, seeing the situation that Dunce Face has been thrown into with his relationship status, I'm honestly scared to be with him. To tell him how I feel.

I guess I will just have to wait and see what's gonna happen with my mental state. To see if my mind is gonna let me talk to him. To tell him how I feel without having a mental breakdown. Not just that, but, I still have to get used to having my hearing aids. To make myself know that I am just as worthy of being a hero as... as... The pervert.

I'm just gonna have to figure out my life, one step at a time...

Sorry for the late Update but I am still alive!

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