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3 Month later

" Daddy daddy " A little girl with beautiful blonde hair laughs and smile running around the rose garden Idrissi chases after her a lovely smile on his face as he follows after her " Iyanna Princess don't fall " he says they both look to where am stand " Mommy " she scream happily she runs towards me . " Naomi Naomi " Stephanie awakes me looking slightly worried I wake up sweat dripping from me body I shake as am cold finally waking up from the nightmares I have suffer from since I I gave my whole life away " are you okay ?" She moves my hair from my face I try catching my breath " don't " I murmur getting up from the bed moving away from her " get out get the fuck out " I utter walking to the bathroom I turn on the shower seating there fully clothe as cold water runs over me " I killed a innocent baby our baby my baby " those words reply over and over again in my head I can't cry anymore I'll just make myself sick again I feel everything in my stomach try to come up and I move from the bathtub to the toilet emptying everything I have eaten yesterday . It's been a month a month since I left new York my friends family and Idrissi and I month since I went through on my Stephanie plans to save Idrissi's family I finished my junior year online my mom could herself giving me a month before I started boarding school in Vermont in her words " I needed to heal and move on because it's the elite way " I chuckle wiping my month standing looking into the mirror I don't recognize myself I don't know who I am in more I pull my shirt up looking at my stomach " I'm sorry am so sorry " I cry because there's nothing there anymore there are nights when I sleep when I can hear baby cries calling out to me those are the nights when I wanna die when I want air to leave my body and just let me sleep there's a knock on the door that brings me out of the moment " give me a minute please " I wipe my tears brushes my teeth .

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" Vermont Saint Boarding school in beautiful omiy you'll love the campus the senior hall is to die I'll have you own room you'll take five classes a day they have a swim twin hockey time drama club book club and gymnastics team and debate team " Stephanie rambles on at breakfast as I eat bread that literally sometimes the only thing I can keep down " Steph just stop " my dad utters and I am eternity thankful he's here " princess hows your morning " daddy asks drinking his coffee I shrug because if they knew how I truly felt they probably wouldn't send me to Vermont saints Boarding school maybe a mental hospital instead " fine I did a little shopping for school am just honestly ready to get there it's not a totally lie but it isn't the full truth either I just wanna be away from Stephanie and if boarding school gives me that outlet I'll take it " that's great love " I nod .

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" Senior year fucking sucks with you " I smile as Corey act as if his life be dead without me and that kinda make me feels better I him I miss all my friends " Lindsey went crazy and died her hair green and black she dress and all black now " I giggle " no seriously Carter actually as been sober the full summer and we took a trip to Thailand basically a we did was cry " I frown not like that because were all sad I knew it would be hard for our group to accept me leaving but they don't need to suffer to my sacrifice I made I dont regret it I made it so the people I love didn't need to suffer all of us don't need to be miserable " that isn't what we promise Corey you guys swear have fun really enjoy I start school soon and I promise am gonna try to do the same it's our senior year damn it ory I'll kick your ass please enjoy yourself I want you guys to " he laughs shaking his head even if he was sad this summer did him justice he look like he's been working out and he more beautiful then I remember " Idrissi his his fucking different " he utters and that's the one topic that I wanted to avoid I miss him to much I know I need to move on I have to that was the deal
" What did he change his hair color to ?" I try joking trying a lighter subject he seems serious though because he doesn't laugh " no like seriously he's different I seen him a couple of times this summer at parties smoking he was drinking his has tattoos he's still  beautiful and I seen him kissing kassmina " and my heart sinks wow I have been hurting while his been living his summer up " I'm glad he's moved on he needed Corey I gotta I FaceTime you later bye " I hangup before he can say anything that's what I wanted right for him to move on live his life enjoy himself I text Corey { do me a favor and please check on him don't tell him it's for me just see } Corey respond agreeing . 

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