swan dive :)

whats stopping you?

i sit there and think
what if all might saw me
what if
kacchan
Shotou
Tenya
eraser head
Uruaka
Momo
or even kirishima saw me.

they would think i'm a little stupid qwirkless loser. that i can't even eat
i can't even have clear arms
i can't even talk without stuttering

everything might make sense to them though
it might tie together why i had dark circles under my eyes
why they never saw me at lunch
why i always wore hoodies
why i spaced out in class

bakuhoe POV

i saw that Deku was about to cry. he waited till everyone got out of class. the fuck is going on with this broccoli head?!?

he went... away... from the lunch room?

he's heading somewhere that i want to know.
if he gives me one fucking fake smile i'm going to knock it into next Tuesday it's not even funny

i waited for 5 minuets just thinking to myself.

this kid hasn't eaten anything in like 4 years i swear.

i wonder why i care all of the sudden i care.

i've had a crush on him ever since like 1 month ago and i can't get the damn nerd and fucking half and half out of my head.

i should follow him. after what i saw in his notebook i think i should. he drew a ton of sad shit. but also me and Todoroki so i don't know at this point.

i want to go up to the roof where i think he is. no. he probably went somewhere else. i'm over thinking this. he wouldn't right? plus it's pouring rain out there. does he want to get struck by lightning or something?!? i walk to the lunch room and think if i should have gone up there or not.

Deku POV

i wish i wasn't alive.
i don't want to leave tho and idk what it is.
kacchan or Todoroki maybe?

the rain gets harder and the lightning gets worse. should i go inside? this is my happy place. this is where i want to be and stay forever.
just me
alone
listening to music in the pouring rain. i feel so.. safe

- time to go back to dorms time -

i pack up and wait for everyone to leave before heading out.

i walk out and see not many people in the hallway

i feel a pair of hands travel around my waist.
what the fu-

"Izuku~" Todoroki says into my ear gently

"oh god you scared me." i say while turning to face him.

we were face to face and i felt my face heat up.

"wanna come back to my dorm? we don't have school tomorrow and i want to tell you and someone else something" he says while looking into my eyes

"i- sure!" i wanted to kiss him so bad but i couldn't.

i just couldn't since what if that other person was his partner that he was introducing me to or something.

we walk to his dorm and he plops onto the bed

"don't be shy. this is your dorm practically now~ i'm gonna go take a shower. katsuki should be here any second now. i love you~"

Todoroki POV

FUCKING SHIT!!!! did i really just say i love you to the kid i invited to my dorm ONCE?!?!?!!?!?

i watch as the boys face turns bright red. i messed him up good.
i left him in his probably melting self to shower