i made sure that Deku slept as long as he wanted. i made sure that he was comfortable. i go on my phone to text Todoroki.
- Todoroki ❤️ -
me: hello darling. how did you sleep?
Todoroki: i was worried about Izuku but besides that good
me: ya i'm making sure he's getting a good rest so ya lol
Todoroki: that's good. i'm going to come into his dorm and take all of his sh stuff
me: ok he's pretty tired so you can come over now and search his whole dorm :)
Todoroki: okay i'll be there in like 5 minutes
me: ok that works. i love you <3
Todoroki: i love you too 💖
i unlock the door and i make sure that Deku is still asleep.
i look around his room and i collect things that aren't blades. i end up with two packs of cigarettes, a gun, rope and pills.
god this poor boy with all of this... he really wants to die doesn't he.
Todoroki opens the door and looks at me and Deku sound asleep. a small smile appears on his face as it slowly fades from him realizing what i had in my hands. he let out a deep sigh and went into his bathroom.
i hear him open and close draws as he searches through them. i watch him through the door was and i feel like my world just ended. there were 40+ blades and that was just in the bathroom.
"k-kacchan?"
"yes Deku?"
"w-what are y-you guys d-doing?"
"oh... well... we're taking your bad things out of your room. you can't live with all these things anymore. it's not healthy."
he sighed and turned to face the wall. away from me.
i lay down next to him and rub his back. i feel so bad for him. he's too young to die.
Todoroki grabs a walmart bag as he puts blades in it. the bag is full of blades and cigarettes. i wanted to cry my heart out but i needed to be here for the boy. the boy i always picked on. the boy i always made fun of and laughed at.
god why were you so stupid back then kacchan. you did this. YOU DID THIS. YOU'RE USELESS.
i lean my head back in an attempt not to cry as tears quietly stream down my face.
Todoroki cleans up his room as i try to comfort the depressed boy i called my boyfriend.
"i'm sorry Deku..." i manage to get out chocking on tears
"this isn't your fault. i'm the problem. not you." he said that so heartless. he's lying
"i'm not believing that. i should have been nicer to you when we were kids. i shouldn't have been suck a dick. this is all my fault. i made you do all of this. it's all my fucking fault for being so caught up in myself. i-" i get cut off
"you're wrong." he doesn't say anything else hut he turns around and sits up
"wh-"
"this is all my fault. i've always wanted a quirk but i never got one. my mom left me cause of it and my dad hated me so much he left for a different girl. i assumed in my next life i would get a quirk so might as well ruin this life. right?"
