Insanely Obsessive {Zayn&Harry} -Bwwm

Fourteen

When I wake up I'm still safely confined in Dre's arms. He looks down at me and strokes my hair gently, "Mom and dad told me what happened. I called Louis and he said that he's really sorry. " I look up at him and nod. Looking back down I see my phone sitting on his bed and look back up at him confused. "Harry dropped it off. He asked if he could stay but I told him that you were asleep. " I look at it, there are six missed calls from him and three texts telling me to please pick up. I pick it up and go to my room to get ready to take a shower. I grab some big fluffy pajama pants and a hoodie out of my room and put my phone on the charger. I go into the bathroom and turn the water on as hot as I can stand it. I take off my clothes slowly, grazing over many sore spots making me cringe, and sit down in the bottom of the shower just letting the water wash over me. I pull my knees to my chest, wrap mt arms around my knees and lie my head on my knees. I watch my blood flow with the water down the drain. I rub my hands over some of the bruises on my legs. The hot watter pounds against my head soothing some of the pain which Louis inflicted. I start to cry and just let the tears mix in with the water. I close my eyes but the images of darkness take over. Not normal darkness but the darkness I was trapped in during the horrible thing Louis did to me. The cracks in my heart open up and I cringe at the pain flowing through me. I can feel the water gradually get cooler with me occasionally making it hotter. I'm not aware of how long I'm in the shower but the water went from soothing warmth to freezing cold numbing. There's a knock on the door and my dad's voice booms through, "Toni, are you alright in there? " I look up, "Yeah, " I croak. I can hear the tears in my own voice, it's so obvious that I'm crying. "Come on out of there sweetheart. You've been in there for almost two hours now. " I look up and cut off the water. I watch the water slowly go down the drain. I stand up and draw open the curtain. I see a bruised battered girl who looks like she just crawled up from hell. She looks like she was hit by a meat tenderizer. Her hair is like a giant poof of wet curls, she has a cut or bruise on almost every square inch of her including a dark purple bruise covering her cheek. And she looks like she's a hollow shell of tears. She just looks so broken. She's standing against my wall and I'm wondering why. As I stare at her she stares at me and I realize it is me. I'm looking in a mirror.

When I get back into my room my dad is in there. I squeeze the water out of my hair with my towel. "Hey Princess how are you feeling? You ok? " I force my face into a smile and push out the lie, "Yeah. I'm fine dad. " He smiles too, stands up and squishes me into a hug. It hurts like hell but I feel better. He rests his chin on the top of my head, "Oh yeah, I almost forgot. There's a young man here to see you. I think he said his name is Liam. He said something about Chemistry partners. " Dammit I completely forgot about Liam coming over today. I'm wearing thick baby blue pajama pants and a giant blue hoodie. "Yeah, just send him up. It's cool. " My dad smiles and walks out and Liam comes in smiling. Once he sees me his smile fades, "Whoa, are you ok? " I nod. He bites his lip, "You look like you need a hug. " He opens his arm and gives me a hug. I lean my head against his blue shirt and he squeezes me tight. He has on a little cologne and blue jeans. I pull back and his eyes light up, "Oh! Did you hear what happened to Harry? Man. " I cringe at his name, "What happened? " He laughs, "He's in juvie. His mum called the cops on him. I heard he went ballistic and tried to beat the shit out of Louis. I mean like tried to kill his ass. I heard he was gone then he got home left again then came home and started beating the living shit out of Louis then his mum called 911. " I look up at him confused. "Why? " My real question is why would he have such a horrible thing done to me? And why would he beat up Louis after it was done? Liam shrugs echoing my answer to the questions. Then he smiles and pulls out a piece of paper, "I have our surprise chemistry topic. I'm kind of worried that we got the one sex related one. " Our teacher gave out assigned chemistry topics and warned us that one of them is to find the parts of the brain that are stimulated during an orgasm and then find the chemical compounds that go in to that stimulating feeling and how they react. Then, for the girl, to compare the reactions from an orgasm stimulated internally and externally. (So vag v.s. clit) He puts the piece of paper in a balloon and blows it up, "I haven't looked at it. But I have something to tell you before we see it. "

He ties up the balloon and holds it up, "About health class Thursday. " I put my hand up, "It's ok. The balloon popped because I was half naked. Not because you like me or something stupid like that. I mean we aren't even in the same social radar for you to like me and I mean we're just friends anyway. " His face starts getting red, "Actually. I wanted to do it again. " Why? I shrug, "If you're trying to prove that you don't like me I already know. You don't have to. " He puts the balloon on himself and motions for me to come closer to him. I come closer and push myself against the balloon gently. I put my arms around his neck and he puts his hands on my butt, which hurts. I cringe at the pain and he lets go a little. I roll my eyes, is he seriously doing this to prove that he doesn't like- My thoughts are cut short by the sound of the balloon popping. I look down at the pieces of rubber and the the paper with our chemistry topic on it. I look back up at Liam. He shrugs, "I like you. I've liked you since seventh grade but you and Harry were best friends and he wouldn't let me ask you out. Then when you guys broke up I tried moving in but you obviously weren't interested. But I do like you Toni. A lot. " He crouches down and picks up the paper. I watch in silence as he opens the paper and his face turns bright red and he looks up at me. "Well, this should be interesting. " I look down at the paper, "We got the sex related one didn't we? " He nods and a half smile creeps across his face, "Ok. Don't worry about a it, I'll take care of everything. We can even do it-the experiments at my place. I'll get all the supplies and you don't have to do anything but sit back and enjoy the um, the experiments. Then we can knock out two in one and we can write the report together. I'll even write up all the charts and stuff. " I nod, "Ok. Sounds good. I mean I'll help out with a little bit of course. " He smiles again, "Wait so you're cool with this. Like everything? " I nod, "Yep. No way a crush is gonna make me fail a chemistry project. I don't think Yale would like that. This is gonna be done. " He looks at his watch, "Ok, I'll go get the materials we need, um, just come to my place tomorrow at like 2 or 3 and we can get started. " I stroke my hand through my wet hair, "Ok cool. See you then. " He hugs me again then disappears out my bedroom door.

I lie down on my bed and close my eyes. I want to think about what just happened with Liam but I can't. All that keeps coming to mind it the stupid chemistry project. Is he just gonna take advantage of me like Louis did? I wrap my arms around myself.

I hear a knock on my door, "Toni, " Jamal's little voice comes through. I wipe some tears that escaped my eyes, "Come in Jamal. " He pokes his head in and his eyes are all red. I sit up, "Jamal what's wrong? "

He breaks down into tears, "I did it. "

He comes and sits on my bed next to me, "What did you do Jamal. "

He wipes his face, "I called the cops on Louis. I know what he did to you. Harry walked in and I was right behind him. I saw a glimpse of what was happening but I didn't know it was you until I saw you leave. I called 911 and I just asked them to come because I was freaking out then Louis threw my phone. But when Harry came back from following you and started beating Louis I ran then the cops came and arrested Harry. I guess their mom called the police too. I'm so sorry. " He hugs me and starts crying.

I kiss the top of his head, "Awe pancake it's ok. Just please don't tell anyone what you saw ok? No one. "

He nods, "Also. I had sex with that girl. But now she doesn't want to be my girlfriend. She just wants to be friends because she likes Joe. " More tears fall from his eyes and I hold him and cry too.

"Awe Jamal. " I cry because I'm hurt on the inside and because my little brother saw what happened to me. We end up lying down on the bed crying together. My poor baby brother.

When I wake up it's pitch black in my room. I'm still holding Jamal. "Toni, " he croaks in a small voice.

"Yeah? " My response isn't any louder.

I love you. " I smile to myself vaguely and close my eyes, "I love you too pancake. "