Insanely Obsessive {Zayn&Harry} -Bwwm

Nineteen

In Liam's car I try not to look at him too much. Harry really did a number on the poor boy's face. "Are you okay?" He nods but doesn't say anything.

"I'm sorry we couldn't stay the night like you wanted, " I try again. I wasn't too keen on being at the beach for long anyway. Besides I'm sure he wants to get some ice on his face. Or at least go to the nurse for some band-aids.

After another moment without him speaking I turn back to the front deciding to let him have his silence. He let me have mine on the way here.

About halfway back to school he finally speaks, "I guess I had it coming. I knew the whole story about Jennifer and I know how Harry feels about you."

I bite my bottom lip thinking of something to say to make him feel better. I really hate being the cause of all this trouble between the two of them. They've been friends their entire lives and the last thing I want is to be their Yoko Ono.

I decide against looking at him but I know what I want to say now, "It isn't your fault that you have feelings for me too. You can't control your feelings. I can't control my feelings for Harry and in all honestly that guy I went to a party with I actually liked. It doesn't mean I love Harry less but I can't deny the guy and I had a connection." I wonder if he's gonna tell Harry that. I would hope not but if I tell him not to it sounds guilty when I shouldn't feel bad about it.

"What I did was horrible. Once again, I selfishly took advantage of your breakup. Harry told me what happened a couple days ago and he begged me to tell you. I told him I'd tell you that he didn't do anything wrong but I didn't. Then I went out and found out which chemistry partners actually had the sex related project. It was Calum and that girl Jamie but I know he's into you so I asked him to switch and he was relieved. Then I stole a balloon from the sex ed class and made up my plan for what to tell you... I didn't know about what happened with Louis though."

I pause, taking in all that he has said. A full minute passes before I realize I can't breathe. I feel trapped all over again. Do I have any platonic male friends? Or all they all just waiting for Harry to screw up so they can make a move? Should that make me trust them less?

Before I can stop it I hear myself ask, "Are you all just friends with me because you want to fuck me? " Oh shit. That didn't come out right. I look at Liam. He looks as if he is at a loss for words. The shock so clear upon his face I almost feel bad.

His eyes dart to the road then back before he speaks, "Of course not. I can't speak for anyone else but I'm friends with you because, well to put it simply: you're amazing." I gasp softly at his unexpected response. "A-and I don't just mean looks. You're probably one of the nicest people I know despite everyone constantly acting like they're better than you. You're smart as fuck and you have a right future ahead of you. You're driven, and passionate. I am so sorry that I keep trying to take advantage of when things go south with you and Harry but I will not apologize for having feelings for you. How could I not have feelings for you? You're the best person I know. " My stomach drops making my body feel lighter than air. I've never heard him say something so sweet. Tears begin to collect in my eyes as I try to swallow the lump in my throat.

"I didn't know you felt that way. " I manage to choke out. I know he can hear how weak my voice is.

"We all feel that way. It might be shitty for all of Harry's closest friends to have these thoughts about you but how could you blame us? All those popular girls Harry and I hang around are complete bitches. The ones all the other girls look up to and want to be like only care about themselves because everyone else cares about them. They're mean, they don't think for themselves and they're only passionate about drinking, sex and make-up. None of them care about anything outside of the opinions of classmates and parties. Being around you is completely refreshing. "