Sanctuary // H.S. AU

Cherry Flavoured

I start driving to Harry's, deciding to play Cherry Flavoured by The Neighborhood. I watch the city lights fly by as I get deeper into the city. I reach his building as the song comes to an end, taking a deep breath in preparation.

I get into the elevator, hitting the button to the penthouse, so pretentious. The doors open and I immediately lock eyes with that familiar green.

I take a step inside, and he must notice the anxiety running through me, because he runs up to me and hugs me.

I start to breakdown.

"Lennox what's wrong?" He breaks the silence.

We break apart and I look up at him.

"I woke up in Kai's bed." is all I manage to speak.

He takes a step back as if I actually pushed him away. I see the anger start to flare, his once green eyes becoming black.

"You what?"

"I-I don't know. I don't know what happened."

Those eyes managed to get darker.

"Did he hurt you?"

I look away, more tears beginning to fall.

"I don't know." I answer again.

He tells me to sit down on the couch and gets me a glass of water. I notice the empty scotch glass on his coffee table and hope he's not drunk enough to hunt Kai down.

We sit in an uncomfortable silence for a few minutes before I calm down enough to start from the beginning. I tell him everything, from Kai saying I consented to Alice saying I might've not.

Once I'm done with the story, he just stares at the wall.

"Harry I'm so sorry."

He takes a deep breath and turns his head towards me, grabbing my face in his hands.

"Lennox don't ever apologize for something like this."

I start to cry again, my voice breaks as I say, "What if I consented like he says I did?"

Harry's eyes stay locked on mine as he wipes a tear and says, "I don't care if you asked him to fuck you. If you can't remember it, he should've never taken you to bed."

"I-I know but I'm just so sorry, I don't even know what to say."

I look down at my raw fingernails before I can speak Harry takes the bottle and smashes it against the wall.

"Fuck."

He presses his head against the wall looking defeated.

"Lee if I ever see that fucker again I don't think I can control myself."

"No no please don't do that. What if I'm wrong? Maybe I did say yes and didn't remember."

"It doesn't fucking matter Lennox."

His worried eyes meet mine.

My cheeks feel like there's burning coal on them and my teeth clench so hard I think I cracked a tooth from trying not to cry in front of him.

Before I know it, I feel hot tears running down my face before I can even notice, so I quickly look down.

Harry slowly walks towards me sitting down not knowing what to do. I can tell he's not very comfortable with emotions just like me.

I make sure I only cry twice a year, my fathers birthday and the day he died. Other than that I almost refuse to cry.

Even if he has not clue what to do, he wraps me in his arms and lets me cry. We sit on his couch for what feels like hours, with the sounds of my sobs filling the penthouse floor.

This has to be the hardest thing I've ever talked about.

It's so confusing to talk about when it's one of your best friends.

And when you're so drunk you're unsure.

I feel unreliable but also terrified.

Out of nowhere Harry carries me to his bedroom.

I soon fall asleep with his arms wrapped around me.