Suffocating

VIII

she stayed quiet

as I began to talk.

the voices

they never leave me alone

they tell me things

things that I didn't think were true

but now I know they are

they tell me to end it

because I'm

ugly

fat

unwanted

unloved

pathetic

dumb

despicable

and before you

I was ready

to end it all

to stop the voices

but you

you stop them without stopping me

you saved me, Emily.

she has tears in her eyes

her beautiful eyes

trace? you aren't ugly

or fat

or unwanted

or unloved

or pathetic

or dumb

or despicable.

that's just what the voices want you to think

they try to torture the people that are strong

in hope to break them down

and make them weak

but you cannot be shaken

we won't be shaken.

the voices will be the ones suffocating if you can believe that

I do

I really do believe

because she does

she believes I can do it

and that is enough for me

to believe too
-Trace

•••

for Emily
(you know who you are *wink wink*)

thank you all for being lovely and supportive even if you don't even like this story