The final love, of the final life

Chapter 14

Today was the funeral. I'm pretty sure Noah has been depressed since the crash. I can't believe that mom and Kirsten are really gone. I went shopping with Noah to get outfits for the ceremony. We went into a store found a decent suit and dress and immediately went home. Noah sat in his room for most of the time these past days.

"Are you almost ready," my dad said opening up my bedroom door.

"Yeah. I just...."

"I know honey."

He walked over to hug me. We stood there for about a minute just hugging. Then we let go and walked downstairs. I saw Chris about to approach the door, so I opened it. He looked...not as good as he usually does. He grabbed me and hugged and kissed my face.

"I was so close to losing you. I never want to go through that."

I kissed him passionately, but then stopped because something didn't feel right. He must have felt the same thing, right after we joined hands and drive to the church.

Today was by far going to be one of the worst days of my life. Actually saying goodbye to mom. I could feel my eyes getting teary as I thought about it. I blinked quickly and tried to forget about it.

We walked into the church an hour early to make sure everything was perfect. This is the way they would have wanted their funerals. I sat down on chair, and someone came up and put their arm on me. It was Noah. His eyes were glossy, just as mine. We just wanted each other's presence, and they made me feel a little better. Guests started coming in and said they were sorry and how much they were going to miss them. I knew maybe half of them. I didn't really want to hear the same thing being repeated to me so I zoned most people out. After the ceremony ended, we had cake and turkey. I didn't eat much, Noah ate his feelings, which lightened up the mood. Finally one of the worst moments of my life was almost over. I was so ready to go home. I hopped in the car as soon as the doors were unlocked.

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I sat in the bath and just lie there letting the burning water surround my body. I had a couple candles lit, the lights off in the bathroom, and all I wanted to do was be in peace and forget about the world.