Woodland Whispers & Loki's Love

Part 17- An explanation

I stood still, blocking him from his room, and trying my best to hold his attention.

It was the first time I got a look at his face in over a week. I noticed there was a slight illusion over his face, when I looked closer, trying to see behind it I could see dark circles under his eyes, he hadn't been sleeping either.

"Loki" I said quietly, trying to keep my voice soft and everything calm, "what?" he snapped back, the harshness in his voice made me flinch.

"I just wanted to expla..." he rolled his eyes, I could feel anger rising inside him again.

"You have nothing to explain. This entire thing is preposterous. I was simply bringing you tea to return the favour of suffering through a dance with me."

I don't know if it was his tone or just the pure exhaustion I was feeling, but tears began to fall from my eyes.

He scoffed "Oh honestly darling, what could there be to cry about? Did Barnes run off and leave you for another stupid girl?"

His feelings turned towards spite again and he stood unwavering as my tears fell faster and harder. "Did you think I needed some explanation? That I wanted anything from you? You are nothing, you are pathetic, your tears mean nothing to me y/n."

He opened his mouth to continue his rant but the pain was getting too much, my head was pounding and he was acting like a petulant child "ENOUGH" I screamed.

He instantly looked startled, like he was momentarily shoved out of his rage.

Choking back tears I leaned towards him, through my magic I felt a pang of sadness and guilt coming from him. "Please" I pleaded "just let me show you". He sighed, looking bored, and extended his hand. As soon as we touched the golden warmth of electricity ran through me again. I waved my hand and the hallway exploded with green mist.

The mist cleared and Loki was stood in my barwen, I had created a full vision of the morning everything happened. He looked around but I had made it so he couldn't see me, and his eyes slowly fell down to a ghost of me, sat on the floor, picking up pieces of tea cup.

I watched his face twist with the scene in front of him, he looked irritated to be here, but there was a level of intrigue as well.

Loki's head tilted to the side as the vision of Bucky asked "and the broken tea cup?" and my breaking down when I told him that it had been Loki who had brought it. Loki seemed to be holding his breath, he hadn't looked at anything other than my face in minutes. His eyes were totally focused, presumably to work out if I was lying or not.

"y/n, nothing happened between us last night" the shock on Loki's face after Bucky's words was obvious, he took a sharp inhale. "At some point last night you started to feel pretty unwell, I was going to bed anyway so offered to take you up, and Thor insisted on coming too" Loki started to look confused.

"You got pretty upset, you seemed like you were in a lot of pain too" Suddenly I felt guilt swell up in Loki's chest, followed quickly by something almost like jealousy as I finally allowed Bucky to touch my back to calm me down.

Confusion and guilt had joined the symphony of emotions leaking off of him. For the first time it occurred to me that if he did care for me, then this whole scene would be difficult to watch. It had been so hard to feel in the last few days if he was being genuine with his insults, he had said them with so much passion.

Tears were still rolling down my face as I watched him take everything in, pleading that he would see and realise nothing had happened.

I cut the vision off without showing him what Bucky had said about "messing things up between us", he didn't need to know that. The vision now over, the green mist cleared from around him, and he turned to look at me. I couldn't tell what the look in his eyes was. He looked sick, his face still red with anger, but he seemed to have tears in his eyes. He opened his mouth to reply, I held my breath.

As he opened his mouth a familiar sound started out. The mission alert siren sounded.

What was less familiar was Jarvis being cut off by Tony as he practically screamed through the speakers "everyone get down here, we need to go, RIGHT NOW".