Beam's POV
Stupid giant wild bear!
I gritted my teeth while gripping my steering wheel.
How the fucking hell he didn't even know that he called another man's name after he slept with me?!
The worst is he called no other than Yo's name!
(sighs)
I knocked my head onto the window while snorting. Well, why should he care about me?
He wants to take responsibility (snorts) over my dead body!!
I drove to my secret hideout after I calmed down. It's been months and i missed this place so much. I open the door and literally throw myself onto the couch.
I grab my phone, dialing Pha's number because he'll skin me alive and make a pouch with my skin if I'm gone without telling him.
Such a sadist guy! You're all being fooled by him! huh!
"Hello Beam?"
"Hello krab, I'm not going home today. I'm at my secret hideout because.... I think you already know the reason tho...."
"No, I don't know the reason, why?"
"Nah, will tell you later. Don't panic when I'm not answering your call because I will be drowning myself on the assignments now."
"Hm. Okay, be safe."
"Hm, 'Kay. Talk to ya later."
(long sighs)
Okay let's clean up this house a little-... but well this place sure is clean. My daddy always made some of his maid to clean this house for me, I should thank him later~
Well then, let's do something that can make me forget about that wild bear.
I put a big canvas in front of me and literally throw any color I see onto it. (sighs) I still can't think of anything beside him. I looked at my phone and was shocked to see there's 50 missed calls and 129 messages from Forth.
What the hell? I will never pick up your call! huh
I throw my phone away then continue my work.
Why can't he leave me alone? (rolling eyes)
He's definitely still in love with someone else but why did he say that he loves me, so fake!
He will leave me for someone else, I'm sure of it.
Because, One, he's just so easily "moved on'' from Yo to me like it's nothing! Even though I know how deep his love for Yo is. And two, because he is a gentleman, what if... he slept with someone else then he'll take responsibility for them too! (sigh)
My hand trembles at the thoughts of someone I love leaving me again.
My breath hitches when I think I'm the reason they're gone...
They're leaving me because of me... (teary eyed)
I put my head on my hands and let my tears slowly flow down...
It's been so long since I last cried...
(sighs) Please don't let me have a nightmare tonight...
I throw myself on the bed and sleep while clutching my heart....
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philophobia (under revision)
Фанфик(n) fear of being in or falling in love Beam Baramee is a nerd and a loner. He never feel loved beside from his parents and best friends. He lives a boring life until he fell in love but got his heart broken. After so many broken hearts he decided...
