Beam's POV
I'm sitting on dad's favorite place which is on our soft and big couch.
I'm thinking about how much he loves to sit here while doing his work, not even blinking or just drinking his hot coffee while reading the newspaper.
How I love to disturb him because he didn't give any attention to me.
(flashback)
"Daddyyy~ help me with this homework naaa~"
".....Hmm"
"Daddyy!" (playing with his mouse)
"Aww baby you're not supposed to play with my mouse"
"But you're ignoring me huh!" (pouts)
"Ohoo my lil' kitten is mad at me?"
"Yes!!" (hufffs)
"Aww i'm hurt, don't be mad jaa"
I think it's when i'm in elementary school (smiles)
Then I turned to look outside our garden. My mom favourites flower is blooming beautifully.
(flashback)
"Mom, why is Azalea your favorite flower?"
"Hmm, your dad gave it to me when he's gone to college in Singapore" said her while smiling.
"Why not roses?"
"Because he said these flowers mean "take care of yourself for me" and he'll give me buckets of tulips when he's back until he finally proposed to me"
You want me to take care of myself for you mom, dad?
But... I still need you in here with me naaa (tearing up)
I-i don't thinkIi can do this alone, mom... dad...
"Beam..."
"Oh boss, you're here already" (smiles)
"Let's go out today na... You need some changes of atmosphere"
He's worried too much about me
"Mai chai, i'm okay" (smiles)
".... Chai" said him while sighing.
Suddenly I remembered about my family secret hideout.
"Boss, I think I want to stay in my secret hideout, alone"
"Your secret hideout?" asked Pha while frowning.
I nodded my head.
"Okay, but I will go with you."
(frowns)
"I'll only drive you there then I will leave you alone na. I just want to know where it is."
(sighs) (nods)
"You need to pack your things and I think you better stay there until you're feeling better." said Pha while patting my head.
"Okay krab P'Pha" (smiles)
I went to my room and packed all the things I want to bring into my red backpack. I packed enough clothes, my duvet, laptop, and I also brought my brushes and canvas. I'll have to do something to distract me from thinking about them when I am alone.
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