philophobia (under revision)

Chapter 19

Beam's POV

Today we, I mean Yo and the other Moons and Stars will have some photoshoots and videos taken on the beach for their promotion, so our gang decided to tag along to accompany Yo but I'm sooo lazy so I'm still in my pajama and cuddling with my boyfriend (read: pillow)

Arghh I'm soo tired! I had a full time date with my senior yesterday. She really is the true definition of shopaholic (sighs)

I grabbed my phone and pressed the home button. It's 7 a.m and we have to leave in 30 minutes, I bet Kit will come anytime soon. I kick my duvet off of me then head towards my bathroom.

A while later I heard loud bangs, I mean knocks on my door.

"Krab kraabb!" yelled me while struggling to wear my slim denim pants.

I opened the door and found Kit looking all pissed and Yo trying to soothe him.

"You just woke up 10 minutes ago right?!"

How can he know?

Woah he really amazed me.

"Mai chaiii, I've been awake 30 minutes ago"

I'm not lying because I spent 20 minutes snuggling and 10 minutes tidied up.

"We're going now and Pha is already downstairs." said Kit.

I nodded and grabbed my backpack which I already stuffed it in with my clothes, caps, underwear, sun cream, towel, swimming trunk, chips, and sunglasses.

I am so ready for the beach!

I don't even know why I'm so lazy minutes ago but I'm so excited right now.

We meet Pha downstairs and he is driving us to the college. We waited for the others to gather around and get inside the bus so we could leave, we weren't going with them though because we were going using Kit's car.

It took almost 4 hours before we arrived at the hotel and 3 stops at the gas station to pee or buy some chips.

"Isn't it like how we used to do with Peck and the others in high school?" said Yo excited.

I just quietly sit behind him while looking outside the window.

All those memories coming back again after so many weeks and I can't help but feel restless.

My hands sweat a bit and what made me begin shaking is because we are all in the car.

It's not only about Peck that made me like this but also the memories about my mom and dad's accident on the same day which made my heart shattered into pieces.

I used to be okay after the sad accident that took away mom and dad but I don't why, I don't like to be inside the car right now...

This stupid diseases of mine is coming out soon, I can feel it.

I tried to control my breath but I can't and the others seem to have noticed something is wrong with me.

"Thum mai Ai'Beam? You look so pale?" asked Kit.

I shook my head while closing my eyes.

I took a deep breath through my nose and let it out through my mouth but it doesn't help.

Why does this have to happen now!

I hate you body!

And brain!

Forth's POV

I have been waiting for this day!!