Hate Me Harder [BxB] ✔️ [NOT EDITED]

(33) Hate the need for him

BEHOLD. ALAN BEING A PITIED BABY.

P.S. This is the song that I found and translated the lyrics to. It's a Tamil song, apparently and I feel like, it tells exactly what I wanted to have for this part. Some are the same, some aren't. Just, think of it as the acoustic version.

P.P.S. Lyrics: you're my moon to my nights. I'm in love with this line.

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So, we made it work. The project was done and it was time to present it. How did we do it? I have no idea.

I'm just glad that I didn't faint the last day of practice from all the staring I was doing. And that Max didn't notice. Well, I think he didn't.

There's no chance that he caught the minute long staring and the heavy breathing and the fiddling with my clothes whenever I thought of being near him, only because, the thought itself made me heat up and my heart just starts to think that it's in a race.

It's all I've been thinking all day. He's the only one in my mind.

I used to snort and shake my head when friends of Katie fan and gossip about not being able to live because 'they have the biggest crush on earth'. I was starting to think that I lived in a small world before reality hit me.

Max was everywhere. My mind kept creating absurd situations and 'what if's where I'd most of the time end up being with him and everyone's just happy for us and nothing matters.

Insert a big scoff right here.

All in all, I wasn't doing well in the morning of the horrid Monday on the last week of school before the break. I mean, could you blame me? I knew that the guy I felt things for liked me back. He said it right to my face. Right after we did it.

Do I remember it?

Oh god, just thinking about it got my face flushed up.

I tapped my cheeks a few times to get them turning back again, which is stupid because it only makes it worse, just as Katie walked in, ready for school.

"Um... are you okay?"

I gulped, clearing my throat, scratching the back of my neck. "Y-yeah..."

I looked around my room, barely registering the attire. I was thinking of what I was doing before I had started to think about him again. Katie didn't leave as I thought she would. Instead, she just stared back at me, her mind seemingly thinking about something serious as well. "No, seriously, are you okay?"

"Hm? Oh, yeah. Yeah, I'm good. Should we go?"

Please say no.

"Yeah. That's why came. You weren't coming down."

I nodded, not even facing her. I was looking for my bag. Then, after a few seconds of searching the whole room, I saw it right there, hanging on the desk chair that I'd been standing next to. I took it.

"What were you doing?" Katie asked, and she sounded curious. Not her usual curiosity level, but it was in another level. It radiated the want to know and it was very demanding.

"Huh? Nothing. Just... yeah, let's go."

I moved past her and got down as fast as I can. Greeting the parents, I didn't stop for breakfast and headed straight for the car. When I was in the car, I tossed a mint into my mouth, watching Katie walk around the car and get inside. But my thoughts were somewhere else.

The thought of seeing him didn't leave my mind. The knowing that I'd have to see him today didn't help the excitement die down.

"Hey!"