Hate Me Harder [BxB] ✔️ [NOT EDITED]

(25) Hate the fear for him

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I didn't go to school on Thursday.

I stayed home, wondering what I did wrong to become the person I am today.

After, that happened, I almost yelled at Max to get out of my house. My mind was so blank, I almost punched him to death. Then, my eyes met his and reality came back to me.

He was so broken.

And I had to remember that it was his wish, the kiss.

I remembered why he was even with me and quietly told him to stay in my room. I needed time to myself. Away from Max Winters.

When I came back, he was asleep in my bed, snuggled up with my blankets from the cold and I didn't have the heart to wake him up. Katie and Mason came to ask me what happened. I told them that he'd told me his past and just passed out. Pathetic, I know.

When he woke up though, I'd told him to go and Mason took him back to his place.

We didn't meet eye to eye and I felt like Katie somehow knew what'd happened. She kept glancing at me, giving me weird worried eyes.

It's not like I had a million thoughts running in my head. Just one, and it continued to make my cheeks red, heart beat twice as fast like when I'm in a match and sweat run down like a waterfall.

Probably everyone knew that there was something going on with me. And that, didn't help at all.

"Alan," my mum called loud softly for the fifth time of the day. "You know you can tell us anything, right? Whatever that's bothering you. You don't have to think about whether we'd think wrong of it or anything."

I sighed, rubbing my face. We were in the backyard, mum playing around with the garage, dusting things while dad busied himself with the mini plants he was desperate to grow. 

It didn't work. They both didn't go to work when they realized that I was taking another day off. I know, what lovely parents I have...

"Did you do something wrong?" Oh how mum was spot on. "Would it involve money? Is that what you're so worried about?"

Realization struck to me and I didn't know if I wanted to die of laughter or relief. 

"Wait, you think I did something wrong involving drugs?! Mum, I plan on playing soccer for life! I can't have any bad lines on my list!"

"Well, what do you expect Alan! We just got through a hard time in our family and you keep on cutting school!" She had her hands up, posing on her hips. "You're a teenage boy Alan. Us parents have to be alert to everything at all times."

"I'm offended."

"Don't care."

Dad walked up to us, probably giving up for the day. "Just let the boy go will you honey? He's tell us if he needs our help, right mate?"

I nodded slowly. I never realized what kind of parents I had until now. I didn't have a name for them, their moods changed so often it scared me.

"Alan!" I turned to find Katie walking by the backdoor. She came from school while I skipped. She looked like someone run over her. See, that's what school does to one. "Max's here to see you."

"What?" I'm sure I heard wrong.

Katie rolled her eyes. "Max, god Alan, every single time. It's Max Winters! He's waiting at the front door. Go."