Ocean and Space dreams (Senku x reader)

2 - Try to be normal

      It hurts. Your body can't seem to move, your ears are in pain and you know that there's blood gushing out from it. You have just pushed into a trash bin a few minutes ago. From your deafness, you can't hear them laughing and you refuse to look at their cunning faces too, but you know they're laughing. Laughing at how pitiful and helpful you are.

   Your tears start to fall as you thought about how pathetic you are.

   'Maybe I should just die... Maybe I can drown myself and see the ocean as deep as I can one last time...'

   'As deep as I can one last time?'

   Just the thought of it hurts you, you wanted to explore every inch of the deep waters and see every creature with your own eyes desperately. That's what's keeping you up. That's your only hope.

   You looked at your right hand to see your favorite book.

   "Fascinating..." you said before getting up. Every part of your body hurts and every joint feels like it's about to get squished into nothing.

   Looking up, you saw them laughing harder. You ignored them and walked away. They pushed you around of course but you were great full that they left you alone since you're bleeding.

   Coming home that day, you stumbled towards the bathroom to clean yourself and put make-up over your heelish bruises. You can't let your father know how much of a disappointment you've become. You didn't wanna look weak in front of a strong person who worked hard so he can help you grow.

   You chuckled, "Thanks, dad..."

   You walked to your room and sat at the study table. Your 7-year-old hands reached the new book you got from the library. You sat and read it, trying to understand every word, even if you didn't understand one - you used the dictionary your dad gave you as a present.

    The book was about science, your topic is important to be a scientist so you worked hard to understand it. Sometimes, at least twice a week, you will meet your old teacher, Sir Yato. He would teach you something new every day and you will pay him with lunch from the pocket money you saved the whole week. You wished that your classmates understand your struggles and you wished that they're as kind as Sir Yato.

   You sighed, 'I'm a kid, I should be worried about when is the next update about barbie...'

   'If only I could be normal, maybe I would have friends and everyone won't be so mean...'

   So that's what you did. That night you planned on how to get them to at least ignore you and how to make a friend. You even asked your dad how he made friends, he asked why were you interested and you just said that a friend of yours has troubles in socializing. He was proud that you're kind enough to do that, you almost felt bad for lying and thought of going to hell.

   Step one: one by one, you will apologize to everyone and give them a specific gift they'll like. You should take at least a week to know what item they desire the most. You will use your pocket money and your savings from your piggy bank to buy them, maybe ask Sir Yato to lend you money.

   Step two: From memorizing the book of manipulation, you will talk to them and act so they will feel bad for you and leave you alone. This will be a string of lies though.

   Step three: Help them, compliment them. Make them feel special. You read that people are weak with flattery, it will either make them proud or flustered.

   Step four: Talk to your teacher and suggest an anti-bullying campaign because "you saw many people picking and fighting students". You're the top of the class and the teacher's pet so you are sure it wouldn't be too hard to convince her.