Kabanata 23 | Good night sleep
Nagising ako ng maramdaman kung bigla nalang sumakit ang ulo ko.
But I stop moving when I felt a heavy arm in my tummy,and hugging me so tight.
"Hmmm."I heard him groaned and slowly opened his eyes.
Nang magtagpo ang mata namin, a gentle smile appears on his face.
Mas hinigit pa nya ako palapit sa kanya,and he even kissed my nose.
"Is there something wrong?"He asked huskily.
"My head is throbbing."I answered softly.
Then he leaned towards my forehead and kissed it. Hindi ko maiwasang hindi mapangiti.
I got a good night sleep last night,and it is my first time to sleep that good after six years.
"I magically over slept...And it's because of you. You're the cure of my insomnia."Aniya,kaya malungkot ko syang tinitigan.
"I also have insomnia, and just like you it's my first time again to sleep like this."Wika ko.
Hindi sya umimik at mas lalo lang akong idiniin sa katawan nya.
And I realized that my body is so small beside his masculine body. Para isang pitik lang nya,lilipad na ako.
"I miss you, Zoya..."Biglang sabi nya.
"Renuah,I think what is happening right now is so fast...Maybe we should think about it first... It's been six years,and I think some things changed already."Bigla syang napa-upo pero nanatili parin sya sa kama,kaya wala akong nagawa kundi bumangon rin at maupo paharap sa kanya.
"It's been six years,and I'm still sure that I love you,that I want to spend my life with you...How about you,Zoya?"He asked me like he got alarmed with what I just said a while ago.
"Baka naguguluhan ka lang, Renuah...Baka natakot ka lang kagabi sa nadatnan mo dito,and you thought kargo de konsensya mo yun...What I mean is, everything happens so fast..."I insisted. "The other day you were so determined to make me pay for what I have done to you,and now...Baka naawa ka lang. And Renuah I don't need your pity nor your sympathy. I can handle myself thoroughly."I pointed at tinignan nya lang ako ng hindi makapaniwalang tingin.
"And this is the payment I want,Zoya...You,here by my side. Do you really think I am that shallow?"He said like he is pained on how I see things from him.
"It's not like that, Renuah...What I mean is-"Natigil ako sa pagsasalita ng bigla syang tumayo at isinuot ang hinubad nyang damit kagabi at dagli-ang lumabas ng kwarto ko.
Napatunganga ako sa pwesto ko sa ginawa nya...What is wrong with him?!
I am just making things clear because I don't want to assume!.
Tumayo ako at sinundan sya sa labas...And he is in the kitchen, opening my fridge like he is looking for something.
"Renuah..."I called him but he didn't turned his gaze to me.
Hindi nya ako pinansin kahit lumapit na ako sa kanya. Kumuha lang sya ng tubig na nasa pitcher saka muling isinara ang refrigerator.
Kumuha sya ng baso at nagsalin doon ng tubig saka sya uminom.
"Hey,talk to me..."I beg softly.
Pero nakadalawang salin na sya ng tubig sa baso hindi parin nya ako pinapansin,and it somehow irritates me.
"Bahala ka dyan! Pagkatapos mung uminom,umalis kana!"I irritatedly said and he look at me with shocked expression.
Umalis ako sa kusina at nagpunta sa living area ko. Naupo ako sa sofa saka binuksan ang TV.
Narinig ko na lang ang mga yabag na papalapit sa pwesto ko.
And he sat beside me in the sofa and carries me to sit on his lap.
"Ako yung nagtatampo,ikaw naman yung nagalit...You fire it back to me,babe."Nang-aalong aniya pero umirap lang ako.
I don't know,when it is other people I can't roll my eyes nor look at them badly but when it comes to Renuah,I feel so free to show any emotions and expressions I have.
He's like a comfort zone I have...
Hindi ako umimik at mas lalo nya lang akong isiniksik sa katawan nya.
"For now,I want to enjoy what we have...We will talk when your thoughts is clear,kase ako malinaw pa sa malinaw ang nararamdaman ko para sayo...So right now, I'll give you time but while I'm giving you time I want you to stay beside me."Aniya.
And his sweetness suddenly swift my irritations immediately. Humarap ako sa kanya.
"What do you mean?"Tanong ko.
"I want you to pack your things,all of it. And let's live in together in my penthouse."Seryosong saad nya.
"Are you out of your mind?"Is he in rush,or something?.
"No,so do it now...Magsama na tayo na parang mag-asawa...And when you're already ready, we'll get married."Prenteng sabi nya na parang nakikipagnegosasyon lang.
Hindi makapaniwalang tinitigan ko lang sya,habang panay ang halik nya sa tenga at leeg ko sabay ngisi.
"What if I don't allow it?...Sabi mo you will give me time,but you already want us to live together...E di wala rin akong choice no'n kahit ano pang maisip ko." Pero ang loko, ngumisi lang at ninakawan pa ako ng halik sa labi.
"That's the whole point... You will be with me no matter what...And weather you like it or not, you will live with me."May pinalidad na sa sinabi nya.
"Ewan ko sayo,bahala ka...Order ka ng pizza,nagugutom ako."Yun nalang ang sinabi ko at hindi na ako tumutol pa.
He is right. I'm still in love with him,and his suggestion isn't that bad...We are already consenting adults so we can decide what we want to do.
He immediately grab his phone and called for a pizza delivery.
I stayed on hid lap, while he keeps on kissing my ears, cheeks,and neck.Hinayaan ko nalang at itinuon ang atensyon sa TV.
And almost an hour,the pizza delivery arrived. Ako na ang tumayo para kunin ito at mabayaran.
Hahawakan ko na sana ang seradura ng pinto ng mapansin kung sira ito at sira rin ang ibabang parte ng pinto.
What happened?...
"Order nyo po...1560 pesos po lahat."The boy said and offered me the huge box of a well known pizza parlor in the country.
I hand him the 2000 pesos.
"Here,thank you and keep the change."Nakangiting sabi ko.
Mas lumapad ang ngiti nito sa akin,pero bigla iyong nagbago ng dumapo ang tingin sya sa tabi ko at sakto namang naramdaman kung may pumulupot na kamay sa bewang ko.
"Nabayaran kana,so faster and go."Seryosong sabi ng nasa tabi ko kaya siniko ko ito at tinignan ng masama.
"Salamat ulit, pasensya kana dito."Tukoy ko kay Renuah.
Hilaw na ngumiti ang binatilyo.
"Sige po, salamat po ulit...Aalis na ako."Nahihiyang paalam nito bago sya umalis.
Padarag kung inabot ang box at inirapan si Renuah,habang kunot noo naman ang iginanti nyang tingin sa akin.
"What?!...You like that totoy?!"Tanong nya sa akin.
And I gaze him with an amusing look.
"Really, Renuah?... I'm just handing him the payment and talking to him nicely, gusto na agad?...And he's just a boy for God sake!" Iritadong sagot ko.
He just did the "Tss" sound saka sya nagtungo sa kusina.
What's with him?...So possessive!
But suddenly, thinking him being possessive to me,makes me smile and make my cheeks heated.
God, I'm twenty six but I look like a teenager for feeling this way.
Kasalanan to ni Renuah eh!...
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