Extinction (Hange x reader)

He knew

A/N: I created a Tumblr yesterday (I am new to this shit idrk how it works) but it's 'ackermancc' in case y'all have one we could be friends!!

He dropped the red rose and stepped on it harshly. The red rose now on the floor destroyed, eerily similar to my heart. Red and damaged. He started walking closer to me, slowly, like a predator sneaking up in its prey.

He held his hand up high, making me flinch, causing him to put it back down, his eyes shut tight, "give me one good reason I shouldn't kill you right now," he gritted. I chuckled lightly as I replied, "there is none, kill me, Erwin, KILL ME! GET ME OUT OF THIS HORRIBLE WORLD!" Before I could even blink his fist collided with my face harshly and I stumbled backward. A warm feeling on my nose as something tickled me all the way to my chin.

"YOU FORGET WHO YOU ARE TALKING TO!" He yelled gripping me by the collar and lifting my feet above the ground as he whispered in my ear two words that shattered my heart, so short but so meaningful, "I knew,"

He knew. He knew what my father did to me and my mother and he did nothing?! My sadness quickly shifted to anger, "YOU BASTARD," I yelled struggling to leave his hold, his hand lifting me up higher as I futilely attempted to get his hand off of my collar.

"LET ME GO!" I yelled and he complied dropping me harshly to the floor. My stitched leg ache and it tingled painfully.

"You knew everything that dad did to me and mom yet you didn't do anything? You are just like him-"

"(Y/N), you don't-,"

"LET ME TALK, JUST THIS ONCE LET ME TALK,"

"go on then,"

"You knew, and I know dad loved you but that isn't a justification to you letting him beat me, rape me, tell me Erwin did you enjoy hearing me scream in pain? Did you enjoy being the loved child?" I say as I pushed myself to stand up with my now bruised palms.

"You deserved it,"

My heart shattered once again as new tears made their way to my eyes but I refused to let them fall.

"YOU DESERVED ALL OF IT!" He yelled, I didn't know what to say. My throat was dry and I was speechless, did he really mean that?

"Because of you mother was abused for years," he whispered a murderous look in his eyes, "and you will pay (Y/N)," he started walking closer to me a smirk on his face as his eyes glinted red.

I started walking backward, my chest tightened and I was scared, scared of the one that was supposed to protect me. He was supposed to make me feel safe.

"I think you sometimes forget I am your commander," my back bumped against one of the canons, I couldn't run away anymore. I shut my eyes tightly as he got closer and I felt something cold against my neck. The familiar feeling of a knife against my skin. "E-Erwin," I whispered, "p-please," the sound of the wind and a malicious chuckle was all I could hear as a few tears finally left my eyes.

"You are a coward, look at you, one of humanity's best soldiers. Withering and crying, pathetic," he says and I finally open my eyes, part of me hoped this was a dream.

The sword left my neck and I felt blood trickling from my neck. Not enough to kill me but enough to make me realize he wants to kill me. Everything he is saying, he means it. I watched him place his sword back in place.