Reaching

16-Waking up

POV GABBY

Rubi was taken out of my hands and that was the day I wanted to die but I kept myself strong and stayed alive for her.

I didn't even know I was pregnant but I kept throwing up. And 8 months later, I had her.

After I was 'shot', Lyon used me as a assassin, killing people for him but when he found out I was pregnant. He blackmail me that he would kill my baby and my mother so I did the things I had to do.

I didn't want to do it but I had to, and I fucking hate myself for it.

I killed so many, that I get nightmares of the people I killed who didn't deserve it.

Rubi comes first now, and I had to do what was done.

Lyon was smart I'll give you that, but a fucking dumbass. And I can't wait for the day I ripped his head off, and I show him the ways I kill people just like how he told me to.

I began to open my eyes and I squeeze them from the pain I felt in seconds. The surge of pain went through my mind, I groan and I try to open my eye again.

Oh shit Franco.

Many flashes of memories hit me like a brick. I began to gain a migraine. "Oh fuck." I rub my forehead, "fuck, fuck, fuck."

"Okay." Someone spoke and I froze, I couldn't see who was talking because my hand were over my eyes. I slowly remove it and saw my beautiful and handsome Franco in the corner sitting in a chair.

My eyes began to tear. "What?" I remember what he had said a few seconds ago.

"You said fuck and I say we fuck."

Isn't he mad? What the fuck? I would, I would be hella mad, I would fuck him up. Imma different breed son!

"You want to fuck?" I ask him and I scrunch up my eyebrows.

"We done it before, what's different now?" He shrugged his shoulder like a year had nothing happen.

And like always, sex jokes.

A whole lot of weight was pushed on me and I was breaking. Relief he didn't hate me or I was sure but I began to cry like the world is ending.

"I killed so many people, my mom going to die, they took my baby away from me, they took me away from you and Jett. I thought I lost you guys, but I couldn't help but see you. You were only a few feet away from me and I had to talk to you. I had to, but I couldn't let you know it was me so I hid behind a mask. They would've killed my mom and the baby if I was talking to you and if you knew it was me. So I hid me from you. I miss you and I love you, and I'm sorry for what I have done to you. I can't forgive myself-,"

"I'm going to stop you right there." He stands up and shoved his hand in my pockets.

I gulped and held back the fear I was going to hear. He was going to break up with me. I should've died, I should've died!

I deserved it.

"Okay." I said, reading to accept the consequences. "Just tell me."

"What?" Franco said, looking confused. "Wait? You thought I was going to break up with you?! Oh my god Gabby." He starts laughing but I was crying with tears.

He hates me, oh geez.

"I understand, it's all my fault. Just please take care of Rubi, and tell her I love her. A-and tell Jett I love him, a-and I'm sorry for what I have done to you a-and-,"

"Shut up." He sternly said and I nod, light tears fall from my cheek.

I need to leave, I need to be gone. I start removing the covers but I groan immediately. Fucker had to shoot me in the fucking stomach. "Sit down." I looked at him, and he all right to get mad at me.

All this, I didn't mean to do. I fucking don't deserve to live anymore. "I'll be gone, out of your sight. Just go back to where I was dead." I start walking but a hand on my arm stopped me.

I stayed looking down on the floor. My breathes broke into shiver, my shoulder started to shake. "Look at me."

I shake my head. "Look. At me." His voice was so strict, I couldn't tell if he was mad at me. I slowly look up and into his eyes. There were still beautiful as always.

My heart wanted to jump to him. To surround my arms around his belly but I couldn't. We all have limits.

"You think I was going to let you go again. Yes, I'm mad. Not to you, to the person who let me not see you again. You don't deserve to die, and Haven told me the day you visit his apartment, going to kill yourself. Fucking crazy, you have family, you can't go into that state again when shits goes down. You need help.

"You can't keep regret in, that will stir your mind. So please, if you don't want to talk to a therapist, talk to someone you trust to tell. Doesn't matter who, just please take care of yourself before others, you have family that will help you, use it for once."

I smiled and nod, tears run down my cheek. "You should hate me." Both of his hands lands on each of my cheek.

"Stop! Fucking stop! You need to realize I like you when you wearing a mask, when you were dead. I don't fucking hate you! GOD DAMMIT I LOVE YOU!" He yells at me, his touch feels like butterflies.

"I love you, and I always will. I gave you that ring for a reason, yes I might hate you for lying to me but I don't hate you really. Just upset. I love you and that will never change." He crease my cheek with his thump, the corner of his lip turns into a smile.

"Y-you l-love me? After a-all I done?" I whisper and Franco nods at me.

"I love you Gabby, I always will. Through sickness and through health. We're going to get married, till death do us apart."

My breath shakes heavily, "I just need to sit." I was going to sit on the floor but Franco carried me bridal style and Franco sat in the bed with me in his arms.

I started to cry and I start shaking. I tightly grab the shirt of Franco, not wanting to leave me. "I love you, a-and I miss you so so much." I close my eyes as Franco holds me tightly with his arms.

"I'm not letting you go again." He tells me as he kiss my head.

"Please don't leave me." I said as I tightly hold his shirt, "d-don't."

"I'm right here baby, I'm not leaving. Never."

I cry and I think saw tears in Franco eyes as he holds me like he was going to lose me again but this time I wasn't going anywhere.

I burst into tears.

The smell of him, I missed it. I missed my home, were everyone loved me and I didn't lose anyone. I was finally here again, with my family.

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-Yeet