Ughh The Sensations

Chapter 20

This whole Chapter is Mya's POV..

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I loved Jeremiah and I know he loved me but, when he goes and talks about Bethany it just brings anger to me. Yeah me and Marshawn had something but, at the same time he was my everything... I was so pissed when we broke up but, its my fault. I'm the one who messed up. He doesn't love me anymore and its my fault..

Dumbass that's what you get.

Shut up .. I let temptation get the best of me.

Mhmmm sure..

It was like my thoughts wasn't my friend and I excepted that to the fullest.

I picked up my baby boy Jalen.. He came on time I'm in love with my baby boy. He's my world.. I'll do anything for him. Jeremiah was at work I didn't have nothing to do so me and Jalen went for a walk.. It was sunny outside. I grabbed his stroller..

We were walking.. Than I seen Bethany with a stroller and Marshawn on the other side of her.

Great..

Just what the hell I need.

They get closer...

Ughhh

Where's your happy face?

I don't want to put that on my face.

Girl if you don't do it.

Ughh ...

It was like my thoughts was bullying me.

I put a smile on my face as they approach me. Bethany looked gorgeous her curly hair blowing in the wind. She had on a sundress with sandals... And shades on her face. Marshawn had the baby in one of those carrying things that strap onto yo front. They looked.. They looked..

Happy.

Adorable.

In loved.

All I could do was smile.

"Hi, Mya." Bethany said first showing her pearly whites. "Hi, taking the baby for fresh hair I see?" I said smiling and I could see Marshawn staring at me in hatred. "Yeah he hasn't seen sunlight in a minute and I just wanted to have family time with my boys you know." She said smiling again. For some reason I just wanna punch her. "That's good.. How are you Marshawn?" I asked .. It was like he jumped from shock. He just looked up. "I'm good.. Just providing for my family." He said smiling even though I knew he wanted to scream at me.

He gave the baby to Bethany and whispered in her ear. She nodded and turned around to walk off.. He got closer to me. I was kinda scared but, not really. We were standing face to face. "What do you think your doing..? Why do you keep talking to her like you know her when you don't Mya? Huh.. Listen to me.. And listen to me clearly.. Leave us alone.. Mya everything we have is done and over with.. Stop texting me and calling me at night. I don't care about you anymore..." He said with anger in his eyes.

His words were stabbing me in my heart like needles. I felt tears coming down my cheeks. I looked up at him. "But, Marshawn.. I love you... I know you still love me.. Stop acting like what we had wasn't real.. We had a very good spark. And you know it." I said back to him. He lookes at me. "I don't love you anymore... What he had was something but, its your fault... Remember that." He said walking away.

I wiped my nose and turned around to hear Bethany saying, "Is everything okay babe?" With him answering, "Yeah babe.. Let's take MJ home."

I was so hurt.... I've been calling Marshawn late at night when I know Bethany is sleep. He answered sometimes. I need him so much. I know I sound so obssessed but, shit to be honest I am... No ones ever gonna have what we had .. It was magic..

Jeremiah suddenly pulled up ...

"Hey, beautiful come on." He said smiling. "Why aren't you at work?" I asked him. "I got off early so we can go out tonight. So get in the car." Mmmm ... Fine. "Okay come help me." I told him.

He got out the car. I put Jalen in the car strapped in his car seat. He was all happy. I got in the passenger seat and Jeremiah returned and got into the Driver's seat. 

When we got home I went to go lay down. Jeremiah came into the room to take off his work clothes. Raina had the baby. "So Raina's keeping the baby tonight?" I ask him. "Yeah I guess so." He said that in a weird tone. I sat up and looked at him. "What's wrong with you? I swear you was just happy a minute ago in the car." I looked him in his eyes.

He was angry..

About what?

He stared at me.

"Give me your phone." He told me.

"Why?"

"Mya I'm not playing these bullshit ass games with you.. Give me your fucking phone." He almost yelled.

I went over to my purse.

Grabbed my phone.

I handed it to him.

He clicked it on. Than sighed.

"What?" I asked

"I'm not fucking stupid... Unlock it Mya.. Stop playing with me.." I almost laughed. "You its funny bet, okay watch this... Unlock the fucking phone." He was mad for real now. It was just so funny to me.

I just stared at him.

He grabbed his hair.

"MYA UNLOCK THE MUTHAFUCKING PHONE NOW!!!" He screamed at me.

I jumped that scared the hell out of me and I put the password in. He immediately went to my Caller ID and seen all the calls I made to Marshawn.

"Are you fucking serious... That's all you think about .. That's all you care about is FUCKING MARSHAWN... ?? Let me explain something to you.. I am not your rebound. I am your boyfriend and baby daddy... You cheated on him with me... I gave you a child. A Memory.. If you didn't want that than you should've just said it from the beginning!!" He yelled at me. I sat down on the bed. Tears in my eyes. "I'm so sorry.. But, you can't try to come at me.. You went over to see Bethany.. You told me you still loved her!!" I yelled back. That shut him up.. Good One Mya. "Mya I told you I'll always have love for her... I never said I was still in love with her.. I'm not the one calling my Ex 24/7 every fucking day and night. Your fucking craz-..." He stopped... He threw his hands up. "You know what... I'm done.. I see why he left you.. I'm moving out."

He turned to walked out the door but, I stopped him. "Jeremiah.. I'm sorry .. What about the baby.. Jalen.. What about him... You gotta think about him." I tried to change his mind. "I'll come see him.. But, me and you... I can't do this no more.. Mya let me go.. I'm leaving." He told me... I let go and he walked out.

I dropped to the floor and balled my eyes out.

Your so fucking stupid..

Shut up!!

No you shut up you stupid ass. Your worthless you lost a good man.

"I SAID SHUT UP!!" I yelled out loud.. I didn't mean to..

Raina came running to me.. "Miss Mya you okay... Ohh baby girl.. Come we clean up.. Mr. Jeremiah left . Is he returning?" She asked.. I sniffled. "No Raina he's gone for good.. He's coming back for his clothes... " I told her.. "He leave like Mr. Marshawn?. I looked at her.

I nodded... "Yeah Just like Marshawn."

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A/N ; This Is A Very Sucky Chapter and Short.... I hope yall like it..

I'm also starting a new book... Its called Seventeen (17) Days ... So far I only have a Prologue but, I think its going to be really good... So go and check that out if you want.

I appreciate the readers of this book.. I love it so much Thank Guys \(^____^)/

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