The Last Dimension

Magic Landlord (Surroundings)

I...can't stop crying. I killed Masato. He....saved me...and all I can do is....stand here and cry......

I hate myself.....

I wish he didn't save me.....

Masato.....

I look up back at the top of the mountain. That beautiful place...ruined. It's all my fault. Me and my stupid fears. I'll never be able to save the world. I can't even walk through a few pounds of snow without dying....

More snow is falling down.

Damn, that was a hell of a scream. I gotta get out of here, and quick.

*sigh*

I wish I could save someone other than myself. I suck...

The snow's coming down really fast, I might not have enough time to get away.

Something comes out of the ground to protect me. It blocks all of the upcoming snow. It's Moki! He's still alive!

"Kaid, are you alright?" he asks me, turning to my direction.

"Moki, I'm so glad your alive!" I cheer. In happiness, I pick him up and squeeze him like a teddy bear. He squirms out of my arms.

"What are you so happy about?" he asks.

"I'm just glad to see that someone other than just me is alive. I...just killed everyone."

"What?"

"Masato, Luis, Rikiya. They're all dead. I know they are."

"You're probably right, but you can't really say that you killed them. It wasn't your fault. Everybody screams when they're a second away from death."

"What about the first time I died? I didn't scream then."

"Maybe it was destiny for you to scream like that."

"Masato died because of that scream. I'm a murderer."

"Well...I don't know what to tell you, Kaid--"

"And don't call me Kaid! I hate that name! It's not my name! I know it's not my name!"

"Then what do I call you?"

"Call me....I don't know....I'll think of something. Just not Kaid. Just...tap my shoulder if you want my attention."

"Even from far away?"

"Fine, call me Kaid."

I look down at my feet. They're covered in snow dotted with blood. Tears start to run down my cold face again. I'm such a failure. The world is counting on me and all I can do is stand here and cry over the lives I haven't saved.

"This isn't healthy, Kaid. Let's go," Moki says. I nod.

"Let's....let's get something to eat," I whimper. Moki shoots a look at me. I shrug. "Everyone is dead. What else do we have to do?"

Moki shrugs.

"Join them," he replies.

I shake my head.

"Not yet."

I can't die. I refuse to die. Not as a failure. Not as a coward. Not as a fool.

I'm not perfect. I will never be perfect. No one is perfect. But I will grow. I will grow strong. I will grow wise.

"Kaid," Moki calls.

I got sidetracked again.

"Are you alright?"