Bind Me

every little girl dreams of being a princess

Alarix's POV

She's worried. I can feel it through our bond... She's acting brave. She's pretending she's ok and I get it. I understand why she is. I had come to terms with me dying, but now it's not just me... It's all of us.

She doesn't have to be brave, not with me. She can let her guard down; she can let me in.

"What do you want to talk about?" She questioned, glancing at me as I pulled her along until we were standing under a large tree.

I leaned against the tree, pulling her to me until her body was against mine. I've quickly realised there's no better feeling than having her flush up against me.

"How are you feeling? No bullshit." I questioned, glancing down at her.

She took a deep breath, shaking her head. "Lila..." I muttered.

"Ok." She groaned. She rested her forehead on my chest and inhaled deeply. Her emotions were hurtling through me like a roller-coaster.

"I've tried shutting my emotions off from you... I don't-"

I interrupted her, lifting her head, "no, you don't need to hide from me." I interjected.

She sighed, her eyes filling up with tears. "Right, I'll make a deal with you." I sighed.

"What?" She whispered.

"Let me in, baby. I won't ask how you're feeling again... We'll pretend this isn't happening. Ok, beautiful?" I suggested.

She hid her face in her hands as she fell into my chest. She was sobbing, pressing her hands harder into her face to muffle her cries. I stroked my hand up and down her back, comforting her.

It's all I could do, let her know I'm here. I feel useless. No matter what I say, it isn't going to change anything. I want to be able to take it all away from her.

I held her tightly as I slid down the tree slowly. I pulled her into her onto my knees. She curled up, resting her head against my chest.

"I'm scared, too," I whispered. "I'm not afraid of death... I'm scared of losing you."

She sniffled, glancing up at me. "I hate that it took us this long to be together... Lila, I hate that I can't give you the life you deserve." I lamented as I darted my eyes between hers.

"Every little girl dreams of being a princess... I'm about to become a queen. You're giving me that." She chuckled sadly. "But there isn't nothing more I want than you."

She smiled warmly at me, reaching up and holding her hand on my cheek. "I have you, and no matter how long we have together, I'll love you forever." She declared.

My breath caught in my throat, and I gazed at her. "I love you, too, so much." I breathed, holding my hand over has and leaning into her touch.

"So, no more talks about how we feel, unless it's about how we feel about each other," I assured, smirking at her.

She nodded, wiping her tears away. I leaned forward and pressed my lips against hers gently. We moved together slowly before she pulled away.

"We don't have long left now, so I'm going to let Lola out." She stated as she climbed off my lap.

"I'll wait here for you," I commented.

She unzipped her jacket and let it fall to the ground. "No need... I'm going to shift right here." She explained, pointing to the ground.

I have never seen her shift. Well, there was that time back at the other pack when I saw the start of her shift, but I've never seen her complete a shift. Now, I'm going to sit here and watch her body do the impossible.