The gangster's little unknown assassin - Part 2

Chapter 21 - Breakdown

SAGE'S POV

When I reached the hospital I took a two hours nap and then Jayla cut my hair short, just five centimeters above my shoulder. After that, I ate a snack and sleep the whole day.

~ Midnight ~

I woke up by midnight, my mind running through the events of today, and the memory of my father came to me and I just couldn't forget... One moment he was being nice to me, kind, even, and then, like a switch went off he turned cold and a complete judgemental jerk.

He scoffed at me and by the look on his face, I could tell that he was thinking of me as if I was whore!

Me, a whore, a thing that I'll never be!

Hell, if I can I'll never let a man touch me sexually, I'll prefer to kill myself over having to go through the same thing I did with Igor. And to know that he'll try to take my baby away from me, it's simply unacceptable!

And I pledge to any god out there who may be listening to me that I'll never ever lay with a man willingly. For that to happen, the world must be ending.

And fuck, if Igor ever manages to take my little girl from me, I think I'll slowly die from heartbreak. I would kill myself, but knowing that my little girl would be out there, somewhere in the world with that piece of shit is enough to keep me alive and searching for her.

Without meaning too, my thoughts go back to my father, the face he made when he first noticed that I'm pregnant, his scoff, the look of disgust on his face, the way his eyes hardened and turned cold... It broke me...

Bitter tears start streaming down my face, they are uncontrollable and the more they fall, the more the ache in my chest grows to an unbearable and agonizing pain that makes me sob. My sobs grow aggressive, racking my whole body with each one of them. Soon breathing becomes a hard task but the fear of passing out and hurting my baby has me fighting back.

I need the stars, the stars can calm me down. Mom and Raul will calm me down, after all, they are somewhere among the stars... With a blurry trip, I reach the same big window my uncle meet me in, I slide down the wall facing the window and cry my heart out with the skies witnessing. Just by being under the stars, I feel myself calm down a bit. Air gets inside my lungs easier and my sobs die down a little, I know this has to be mom's doing. She always managed to calm me down quickly, but my dark thoughts still have their claws on me.

And that's how he found me...

JAMES POV

One more day of faking being in a coma, one more night of going out to that window to watch the night turn into day. How much longer I can keep this up I don't know. But I refuse to let my family see me like this, incapacitated and unable to walk.

Sure, the doctors say that I'm going to walk again, that with physiotherapy I'll be walking in less than four months but still I've tried to walk on my own and the only thing I was able to do was fell to the floor. If my family saw me now they'll be ashamed of me... I manage to get out of bed and into my wheelchair and out of my room, making my usual trip to the window where I first meet that girl.

I've never seen her again since the other day but I know she's still in the hospital. I heard from some nurses gossiping that the girl got a haircut and left the hospital for the whole morning without being discharged.

I was more than halfway through the path that leads me to the big windows facing the street when I heard this weird chocked-out sound mixed with a whispered song.

"...you a-ar-are my sunshine, *sobs*, my only sunshine, *sniff* *sniff*, You make me happyyy when skies are grey *sobs and sniffs* you'll never dear, how much I love you." The girl singing this song brokenly took a deep breath and, in between heavy sobs she chocked out the last verse.