The Way I Survived

Prologue

Have you ever felt like you were completely hopeless? Like there's nothing you can do to prevent what's happening around you? That's how I felt, when I realized the one thing that mattered to me the most was gone and could never be restored.

Those nights when you cry uncontrollably that you uncomfortably drift into a sleep with horrifying nightmares that never seem to end.

When you wish that everything could be back to the way it was, but as the days pass, you'll realize that you're stuck inside your own hell hole.

You hope and pray that somehow, some way, a person will walk into your life and brighten it up. But what do you do when the person that you were hoping to arrive, never shows up after years and years waiting? And you'd be left lonely and broken hearted?

Would you give up? I know I did, and somehow when I always tried to relieve myself from all the pain, someone finds me and prevents me from the only relief possible. Death.

You might think I'm in denial and naive, but it hurt me so much it was unbearable . But then I realized, maybe there's a reason why I'm still alive. Maybe I have an undiscovered reason to be here. I don't know what it is, but I solemnly hope it doesn't bring me more pain.

Will my person ever show up? Am I ever going to be able to love again? Am I ever going to be loved? Will I be left heart broken for the rest of my life? All these endless questions haunt me daily desperate to know answers. I don't know what to do or think. I'm completely lost in this big world, all alone.

My name is Amelia Rogers. And this is my story.