She's My Best Friend and I Love Her (girlxgirl)

Chapter 8

?Chapter 8

Mali's Pov

I waited and waited until she would come in here i know its only been maybe 2 minutes but it feels like a century.

My hearts pounding so fast i can barely hear myself think

Just breath mali just breath

just .......

"mali you - you wanted to talk to me"

crap all words lost I need to atleast say somthing one word anything than silence dammit

"umm yah i um- um wanted to hear your side about the party" i said quickly

"oh:" was all she said and she walked over and pulled up a chair next to my bed.

"soo"

"soo" she shifted in her chair awkwardly and was avoiding making eye contact with me i was starting to get pissed off

"Ziva just spit it out all fucking ready I dont want to wait here wondering why you hurt me so much please dont leave me in anymore agony!!!!" i screamed and i realized that i was also crying too

UGHH why does this girl effect me this way

"Mali im not going to tell you a pathetic answere i knew exactly what i was doing and i feel so guilty about it and what makes things even worse is that i hurt you THIS badly i never knew well i mean who would but i want you to know that i love you still and always will. Will i ask you to come back to me no would i like you too yes but i cant ask you too either because im such a bitch to you and i know it and im so so sorry no amount of words could amount to the pain i caused you" she said and she grabbed my hand but she was tenitive about it as if she thought i wouldnt let her and normally i wouldnt have let her but honestly i kinda believed her.

"i know i may be stupid but i kinda believe i have hated being away from you i missed you as a best friend and as a my girlfriend, Since i have been away from you i have felt like i have been misisng a part of me. But i can get back together with you not yet because" i paused wondering if i should tell her

"Because what your gonna be with justin" see this is why i didnt want to tell her shed get pissed off

"really Mali Really he hurt you he broke you too many times to count i may have hurt you but he will break you into a million pieces slowly he will make you fall in love with him then he will probably take away the only thing girls hold dearest and once he gets it there is no way getting it back then he will leave just like he always has fucking done to you and your gonna go running back to him!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Really fucking really is she really saying these things to me after what she just JUST did to ME

UGH shes such a bitch

"Ziva REALLY are you really gonna say that to ME honestly after what you have done to me you know who WAS there for me when i needed it when i wouldnt talk to anyone when i was scared as hell when i was crying you may think he is an ass yah somtimes he is but thats who HE is and i love him You dont know the real him i DOO so you can shut you god Damn mouth Ziva" i glared at her and after a few seconds she was the one to look away and i just looked down in my lap and fiddled with my hands

I thought Ziva was going to speak to me

Say something

I wasnt prepared for silence

I turned to look and see what she was doing and what she was doing was sitting their crying and it killed me but i will not be the one who apoligizes i ALWAYS say im sorry she never does EVER

I looked back down this is miserable

I heard her chair squeak

Great shes going to leave me

but once i look over at her my lips land right on hers roughly

she started gentle but i could tell her need was great she missed me she needed me

I needed her too

I wrapped my harms around her neck and she climbed up on the bed and sat basically on top of me, yah it hurt but right now i didnt give a flying fuck

I felt her hand go up my hospital outfit and run up my leg

OH MY GOD whats happening

My breath quickened and i grew very scared i am not ready for anything like this and i never even thought she would do this kind of thing

Before i finished my thoughts i felt her hand fall and rest on my area and i gasped and opened my eyes breathing rapidly i quickly and painfully pushed Ziva back

"NO, no i cant im not ready and im not ready to be with you again im sorry"

Sh was sitting on the edge of my bed eyes full of lust and they were wild looking

"Mali im sorry i dont know what came over me"

"thats fine but now im really tired and i dont really want to deal with anything right now can you go get Justin for me please"

She didnt say a word i didnt think she would and she left to go get him

I felt very tired and fell asleep before Justin came back i just know that when he did come back he crawled into bed with me and whispered,"Mali i love you soooo much" and he kissed my nose and i smiled to myself and fell into complete darkness.

-authors note-

Sorry its so short guys X/ next one will be longer hopefully

i kinda want to know who you like better Ziva or Justin or if Mali should just get someone new hmm options options lol

I love them both but ehh i have to love my characters XP well comment and rate pretty please with cherry on top XD Peace XD