She's My Best Friend and I Love Her (girlxgirl)

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

Ziva's Pov

She slapped me

AND LEFT

what the hell i thought for sure doing that might have worked. UGH im such an idiot i just wanted her so badly why did i let myself do that i think i have brain damage. I should have just never said anything to him i mean it wasnt even TRUE i love her so much i would never use her like that EVER ughh Izzy is going to kill me if and when she finds out

Im a Bitch and stupid STUPID BITCH

I know that if i tell Mali the truth now she will NOT believe me i mean who would

Tears rolled down my eyes

im so stupid im so FUCKING stupid i not only lost my best friend but also someone i love and I basically made Izzy lose her too

i layed down on my bed and curled up into alittle ball

and wept feeling sorry for myself yah i am an asshole

Why did i have to be so stupid and so fucking clueless

Ring

Ring

RIng

*Izzy*

My phone rang and i didnt answere it i didnt want to talk to her right now she would be able to tell that i was crying and i cant have that shed want to know what was wrong and i cant tell her that and im a horrible liar

i heard my phone go off again for voicemail

Ring

Ring

RIng

*Izzy*

"LEAVE ME ALONE" i screamed and tossed my phone to the corner of my bedroom

UGHH shut up stupid phone

She must have called maybe 8 times and finally it stopped

"finally" i whispered and then my phone started going off telling me i had voicemails

after about 15min of BEEP BEEP BEEP pause pause BEEP BEEP BEEP i had enough i mean i might as well see what she wanted

"I hate you Ziva" my eyes widened

"Ziva i am serious i hate you so much its un believable i CANNOT BELIEVE YOU"

"Ziva answere your god damn phone"

"you have ruined everything i hope yopu know that any chance you had with Mali is GONE"

I had to close my phone and i threw it across the room and it hit my wall hard and it left a small hole

"what the hell was that Ziva" shit i forgot My mom was still here

"nothing leave me alone and get out of my room" she just stood there

"GET OUT" i said screaming which turned into sobs and my mom left me to be alone finally

Now not only have i lost my best friend and My first love and always love i also lost my other best friend because i was being so god damned stupid.

I heard my door open up a crack and i saw my mom again

"i said..." but she stopped me

" i know what you said you have a visitor"

what?

then i saw justin pop into my room and my mom closed the door

"w-what are you doing here you should be with Mali and not here you should hate me right now" i bet hes here to yell at me

"Mali is fine being comforted by Izzy and i had to talk to you" he said an sat down on the edge of my bed

"about what" i was actually really curious what does he have to talk to ME about

"im not stupid you dont really feel those things about Mali and i KNOW you wouldnt do anything like that do her" after he said that i broke down hes right

"i know im so stupid i didnt even want to tell her or you those things i mean seriously i dont know why i did that UGH"

"Its ok well no its not but you should really talk to her"

I laughed "shes not going to want to talk to me EVER plus if Izzy's there with her ther is no chance for me to get even close to her Izzy will be very protective"

"you know she loves you so much she may act tough around you but when shes alone with me she breaks like after she slapped you she cryed so hard she wanted to appolize to you but she didnt know if she could, She started freaking out saying that you would never forgive her she doesnt have a mean bone in her body she loves you Ziva she may say she loves me and she might but not as much as she loves you"  he smiled

Why is he being so nice to me ive done nothing but cause him trouble

"why are you being so nice to me ive been so mean to you youve been there for her" he grabbed my hands

"because i know people who love someone SOO much can do crazy things even things like this trust me on this one ive done it i know what it feels like i may not have gotten the love back back but still" i didn have to ask him who it was i knew who it was most definatly it was Mali

"thank you" i whispered

"call her i told her i would have you call shes waiting i told her what i was going to do and i told her if you call her then you do love her but if you didnt and i came back then well thats self explainitory"

I didnt think twice i jumped off my bed and grabbed my phone and dialled her number with shaky hands

Ring

RIng

Ring

"Ziva"

"yah"

"you actually called" she sounded like she couldnt believe it

"yes i called and i wanted to tell you how much i love you and everything i did today was stupid and i didnt mean it at all i-i-i" i started to sob on the phone with Mali

Ugh get ahold of yourself UGH

"Ziva calm down please, im comming over" she said and hung up before letting me say goodbye or anything

"shes comming over" i said in disbelief

"i know" he said and smiled

"wh-what" i stammered alittle confused

"goodbye" he said and quickly left

and not much later Mali cam bursting through my door her eyes wide and she ran towards me and jumped on me holding me tightly like i was the only thing keeping her alive

"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ZIVA"

-authors note-

i am so freaking sorry i have been taking so long to upload ugh im gettin behind sorry well i hope you like it XD Peace XD