She's My Best Friend and I Love Her (girlxgirl)

Chapter 12

Chapter

Mali's Pov

"Mali you Asshole" she said

"excuse me Ziva I am NOT some toy that you can just fucking pass around i am not owned and who are you to tell me who i can be with i AM with Justin wether you like it or Fucking not so back the fuck off" i was fumming with rage she is so umbelieve able i mean REALLY

"Mali i know your not a toy to pass around i know your not owned by anyone but why cant you be with me its been a damn week i thought you would be crawling back to me by know you always do you always want to be friends again ALWAY and now you go to him HIM of all people he broke you so much and I was there to help you through it and your with him because of me kissing some random girl that meant nothing to me it was just a stupid little kiss god dammit"

"well that 'little' kiss ruined my god dammed life do you know how long i wanted to be with you and only 3 months later you fuck it up because you were being stupid there is no excuse for you and I know what he did but you dont know everything he has been there for me through EVERYTHING i tell him everything and you know what thats why i wont come back to you your always waiting on that so this time i wont i am DONE!"

"mali please dont do this PLEASE dont i still love you those 3 months i loved every minute of it please just come with me and we will talk about things later with out the presents of him" she grabbed my arm trying ot pull me with her but i yanked my arm back and firmly said no

"what" she acted as if i had just slapped her

i walked over and got into justins arms which cause her to make a painful hurt look on her face and i didnt care

"i said No Ziva"

"but i thought"

"well you thought wrong so just go home and leave all you do is cause me pain so you can just leave and never come back" i knew after the moment those words left my mouth i would regret them but at that moment in time i didnt care those words were true all she ever did was cause me pain

Like before this all went down and we were just friends i would touch her barely and it would send shocks though me and it made me want her even more

There were times when i just wanted to kiss her

Times were i just wanted to grab her and hold her like couples do but i could never do that

But when we dated everything was perfect

Until she fucked things up

I walked away from her and i did not look back i knew that if i did look back i might regret everything and want to run back into her arms

Because i knew that i would see her face and feel so bad for all the things i said and id wnat to tell her i was sorry but not this time i just can NOT do this

I cant let her get to me i cant let her get into my head i want to make her suffer is that cruel of me yes i believe it is but whatever

We were almost up the hill when i heard her calling my name and i started to freak out and hypervenilate.

So i stopped and justin looked at me curiously

"whats wrong"

"im not sure if i can just walk away anymore im not sure if i can live without her or not be with her" it killed me to say those wordes it killed me but i knew deep down things would come down to this me breaking down giving myself over to her like usual

Do i want this

Do i really want her

"i understand" he said in a sad tone and nodded his head

"Justin i am so sorry i ugh i dont even know what to do i want to be with you but she means so much to me" he put his finger to my lips

"shhhh its ok i mean all she did was kiss that one girl once and i did so many things to hurt you i mean shes probably better off for you" he kissed my forhead

"but i"

"no buts go to her" i was at first hesitant then he gave me a kiss on my lips and said,"go NOW" and lightly pushed me towards her

"im sorry" and i ran down to her and jumped in her arms and started crying

did i just make my life easier

did i make it worse

or worse than that did i just make the worst choice in my entire life

-Authors note-

well heres a twist for yah like dislike tell me what yah think Peace XD