First day or was it?

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TW!!!! Cutting, mentions of suicide, general angst, panic attack, suicide attempt please don't read the chapter if these trigger you and I can write a summary for you if you want one. (In the comments)

Today was the first day of University. Well not really today is more like moving in day and tomorrow is the first day but that didn't matter to Virgil. He was anxious and curling into himself trying to delete himself from the world. This was normal to Virgil but it shouldn't be. These thoughts of constant things that could go wrong had led him to.. cut. These thoughts overwhelmed Virgil and he started to panic. Only Patton has seen him in a state like this and even then he probably looked worse. He had cuts, bleeding everywhere, going from his wrists all the way up to his shoulders. It was not a pretty sight. At this point if he didn't just stab himself or hang himself onto the ceiling he would just bleed to death. Slowly and painfully. He grabbed the knife that he had dropped a moment ago and stuck it right through his chest atleast two times before...
"Hey Virgil! Good morning how ar-" Patton looked at his best friend panic settling into him. "VIRGIL!?! KIDDO STAY WITH ME HELP WILL BE HERE SOON!" Patton screamed crying as much as humanly possible. He stumbled but grabbed his phone and started to dial 999.
"999 whats your emergancy?"
"M-My best fr-riend has just t-tried to com-m-mit suic-ide" Patton was shaking trying to keep Virgil awake.
"Alright where is your location sir?"
"um.. ****** **** ****"
"We will be on our way if you can get a warm tea towl and place it over the cuts it'll help. Can you do that for me?"
"Yeah" Patton was still shaking terribly but ran to the kitchen to grab a tea towel and ran it under the tap making sure it warm. He ran back and placed it over the two giant wholes in the boy.
"Alright sir we are coming in."

There was a knock on the door then around 6 doctors came rushing in to help aid the boy. The doctors all picked him up and rushed him into the ambulance. A small group of the neighbours had came to help Patton. Of course seing something like especially when it was the one person who knew you better than anyone else lying there lying there on the brink of death. It scars you for ever.

Nodody looked at Virgil. They didn't want to see the 17 year old like this, and they shouldn't it was horrifiying. Patton also had to tell his speech therapist what happened and both will need therapy and a lot of it. Virgil especally.

A few hours later and Patton was allowed to see Virgil. He was hooked up to so many machines trying to keep the frail boy alive. Virgil looked so sad just lying there holding on for dear life. Pattons heart broke, he hated this. The only thing left to question is why.. Why had he done this? Was Patton pushing him too much was it all too overwhelming that he just tried to rid of himself from the world? Nobody would know.

~Time skip to friday~

Patton had to break the news to the speech therapist. Going to the appointment but with no Virgil.
"Hello and welcome back everyone I'm glad you all.. Nevermind Virgil is not here." Emilie looked at the group only 4 people. This made Roman quite sad. He wanted to see the dark and gloomy boy standing with him.
"Patton? How come Virgil isn't here?" Emilie asked.
"Oh! Uhm can we talk about that in.. Private?" Patton looked like he had no sleep and had been crying, which he was.
"Yeah sure Roman can you start while I go talk outside?"
"Yeah, no worries!" Roman tried his best to smile. He knew that nothing bad could have happened to Virgil. Or could it?

Emilie and Patton walked out the room. They stood in a quiet hallway and Patton began to speak.
"About Virgil not being here.. He won;t be showing up for maybe a month or more or less I don't know," Patton had tears threatning to escape his eyes.
"Oh. Well is there a reason?" Emilies eyes sofend and he was quiet upset at hearing this news.
"He.." Patton sniffled and sadly smiled
"He commited suicide a few days ago." Patton broke down crying into Emilies arms. Emilie also had a few tears falling down his face.

"Uh.. I think I should leave." A tall man who looked around the age of Patton said and slowly walked away. In a very robotic way.
"Ah, sorry thats Logan he is an assistant of mine. But he deals with trauma because well he doesn't really express his own. He mainly just takes notes and shows them to me because he doesn't know how to deal with the feelings part on his own. He should probably get his own therapist." Emilie trailed off trying to forget the awful news. He would also have to tell Roman who seamed close to Virgil even just after one seeing.
"Thats alright. I should probably get going now I need to check on Virgil."
"Oh here take my number so we can keep in touch."
"Will do thanks" Patton took the note with Emilies number on and stuffed it into the back pocket of his jeans.

~3 months later~

"Hey do you mind if you take Roman he would probably want to help Virgil seeing as this is the closest i've ever seen him with a patiant?" Emilie hoped that Roman could tell on how he was doing.
"Yeah.."
"I'll go get him then. Thank you for telling me the news a few months back and he will hopefully get better." Emilie smiled and walked in to the room to get Roman.

"Hey Roman you are going to be going some where with Patton. Don't question it just go."
Roman just nodded and walked out the room to see Patton waiting for him. They were both silent as they walked to the car.
"Do you mind telling me where we are going?"
"Hospital and Virgil are the only two words I'm saying," It was strange seeing Patton so defensive and maybe angry at something, someone.

The rest of the car ride was silent. They both walked in and Patton asked for Virgils room. *Hold on why would Virgil need a room at the hospital?* The thought slipped out his head and they carried on walking. They eventually got to the room and Patton opened the door. Roman was about to cry. Seeing Virgil like this wanted to make Roman fall and just start crying for Virgil.

Roman walked over and held onto Virgils hand as if it was the last thing on earth. Then.. there was the weakest and smallest squeaze. Virgils eyes started to open. He was waking up.

I'm in a writing mood so there might be more than 1 chapter today. Well that and I need to get a new phone charger because mine either don't work or I broke :p
This was made from 10pm ish to around 12:30 so it might not be the greatest. Other than that I hope you enjoyed!

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