SHADOWS

Talks and Thoughts.

   My feelings were absolutely twisted I wanted to have a talk with my mum but I wasn't going to be easy she has never had that will to deal with things properly especially emotionally and I knew I was going to hurt her feelings a bit, as soon as Blair came the bell indicating the end of school went off I and Blair gathered my materials as we set off to go home I wanted to make a quick stop at her house to collect the present she got for me, she was just smiling sheepishly through the whole walk from school it felt too good like there was more to smile me being over curios as usual asked her I really wish I couldn't keep shut about some things because my mouth always found its way to blurt out my thoughts my Grandma once told me I'd put my self in trouble for that.
' B what's up with you smiling so sheepishly like a child who got the biggest candy '
' CJ come on can't I smile in peace anymore '
' Well the Blair I know doesn't smile for nothing and at the same time wouldn't dare lie to her best friend right ' I knew I was guilt trapping her to answer my questions but oh well what's the fun in getting plain truth without a little hassle
  ' Arrgghhh fine CJ you always find a way to make me speak don't you it's like your evil talent '
  ' You could say that again Ma'am ' I said with a sly smile as I flipped my imaginary hair
  ' Alright it's about the guy who waved me earlier today '
' I knew it there was something going on and yes young lady what's the chemistry between you two'
' Pffftttt no chemistry yet though '
' oh my goodness ' I faked an emotional gasp as Blair laughed so hard
' Come on CJ you're being too dramatic '
' Spill the dirt B' I said with a stern face
' Yes Madme okay here's the deal we've known each other for a while since the last holiday apparently we met at my cousin's work place in Paris '
' Wait up Louisa's place right '
'Yup and since them we've kept in touch he's into me though but '
  'But what Blair he's not your type or you're not interested '
  ' Nah it's not like that he's just not my type you know'
  ' Of course typical of you to say I can't wait for you to finally fall in love one day and then you'd come to me immediately shouting CJ telling how you've found the right one but honey don't worry I'll be right here waiting for the whole story'
  ' Pffftttt CJ give it a break there's no story '

  We were already at her house we even met the front door open someone was already home which wasn't usual so we headed straight to the kitchen we met Blair's mum cooking the woman looked absolutely beautiful even as aged as she is you'd surely mistake her for an extra young lady she had this glowing feature, her almond brown eyes seemed to compliment her brown long wavy here she always kept it natural and radiating, she was like a second mum to me I and my mum used to come for diner as Blair's mum would always invite us over.
  After she had hugged Blair she motioned for me to come closer as she drew me into her arms
  'Oh my goodness CJ it's been ages since I last saw you goodness me you've grown '
  'Mum you're just being dramatic you saw her like two months come on'
  ' Please Bae let me compliment her she's my last child ' and yes Blair's mum always called her 'Bae' they had this relationship it was more like an elder sister to younger sister relationship other than a mother to daughter relationship and that's one thing I've always admired about them. We got talking about her recent traveling experiences and how she had a little communication problem with the people then Blair came down with a cute gift bag I guessed it was the present she got for me she handed it to me and I bid them goodbye as I got to the door Blair's mum called me back and also handed me a gift bag I knew she got me a present she always did in all her trips she never forgets to get me something no matter how little I thanked her and headed home.....

   On getting home I met my mum in the kitchen I dropped the gift bags and my back pack on the counter and went to sneak up on her from behind she wasn't even aware of her surroundings I guessed she was so focused on making the meal I whispered an audible 'peek a boo' into her ears and she screamed gosh!!!  I couldn't help it I laughed so hard I even felt light tears around the corner of my eyes her reaction was more than priceless, she placed both hands on her chest I guess it really got to her but Lord!  I deserved an accolade for a prank well done.
  ' Cheryl the next time you try that with me I won't forget to spank you real hard my dear '
' But mum come on it was a bit fun'
' You say what now how was is it fun tell me I practically felt my heart in my mouth you little Chihuahua '
  ' Ha ha ha alright mum I promise not to ever prank again, both hands on my heart ma and so help me God '
  ' Thank you ' she said and turned back to what she had on fire gosh the scent of the food filled the whole kitchen and as usual the curious me asked questions.
   ' So mum what are you making '
   ' It's Gaschas and Taco fillings madame '
   ' Wawu sounds filling and yummy '
   ' I know right '
   ' Uh huh and yeah before I forget I met Blair's Mum today and she got me a present '
   ' Awwn that's so nice of her remind me to pull a call to her later alright '
   ' Yes ma I'd be upstairs if you need me though '
   ' Alright Cheryl but be down in thirty to eat '
   ' Absolutely '
  I breezed into my room as I couldn't wait to explore my gifts I opened the gift bag Blair's mum gave me and I breathed wow she got me the latest edition of Dunes chocolates she got me a whole pack I was amazed because you don't get to see this on a normal day she also got me a pair of new heels it was a Gievenchy brand and gold colored it was beautiful, the shoe was the type I would pick on a normal day I guessed she knew my taste it was black adorned with a printed gold rose by the side and see through straps for a fact it looked more than amazing I kept it properly on my shoe rack and made a mental note to thank her soon then I went ahead to open Blair's present and good glorious!! This girl was the best she got me a red beret her love for beret was something else she always had this flair for French clothing and styles, there was something else inside the bag I quickly brought it out and oh holy spicy Pringles!! It was  dress a knee length black dress it was off shoulder the hands were slightly connected by little gold straps that had gold strings it was absolutely stunning I had my heart in my mouth at first the dress was the one we saw on a vogue magazine before she traveled I remember telling her I wanted the dress and I said it all playfully she was really the best I could ask for, quickly before I forgot I sent her a long a long appreciation text and went downstairs to eat......

  My mum always made the best meals for as long as I can remember her spicy foods always hit differently no matter how many times I tasted them there is always this liveliness in it like it felt alive and divine after eating my mum went upstairs saying that she had a lot of online work to do but within me I knew she was trying to avoid the pending discussion quickly I cleaned up and went to her room the door was left ajar peering inside I saw her sitting across the screen with her glasses on I knew I had to leave her alone to finish up her work but no that would be prolonging the conversation taking the bold step I went in getting closer to her I was forced to look up at the screen and my good lord! I saw the amounts of bills we owed and my mouth was agape......
  ' Mum ' I said with a broken still small voice she turned to me and whispered the word sorry this wasn't nice, I felt rage and pity swirling up in my mind and I couldn't hold my tongue
' Mum why did you.... '
'Please Cheryl you need to understand he needed the money and I was the only one he could run to ' she said with her eyes filled with guilt
' No mum ' I screamed
' Mum no that's not what happened fine and good he came asking for money you had the chance to tell him no it was your choice Mum it would be better if you see through his lying facade but no hell no! You choose not to you allow pity to blind you that why he could easily manipulate you ..'
' Stop it Cheryl what do you know he's still your father and loves me and I love him too ' she said as she raised her voice also
  ' Damn it mum which love, do you even hear you self huh he doesn't love you that's just you being delusional if he loves you we wouldn't be out of his house, if he loves you he wouldn't fuck those his little flings and rub it in your face for goodness sake mother where do you fail to see all these '

I guessed I pushed her buttons she slapped me across the face my mother whom I had known for all these years who had never raised her hand against me not even for love did today and I was broken, she had tears in her eyes, her eyes even screamed in pain and shocked
  ' I'm sorry Cheryl but your Father's relationship with me is quite personal and I won't appreciate you taking about it on anyway '
  ' Okay I won't but then if you continue like this by being delusional I'm sorry mother but your headed for your grave '
  With that I stormed out of her room in tears I wasn't what happened to mother why had she become like this I felt more confused and pained than ever......

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