SHADOWS

A start.

  Life is filled with up and downs, some ups gives our hearts happiness to the brim where we get utmost ecstasy and wish it would last almost in a forever, but the downs drain more than intended sometimes leaving us with a wound we try so hard to heal from and at some point we heal and at another we don't we're left with scars that always gives us a painful reminder of the past we try hard to forget,a past that is buried deep down in the pit of our minds, concealed from our imaginations but at some point we are happy we survived the fact that we made it thorough the thick and thin is the best feeling anyone would wish for.....  And so do we begin 'SHADOWS' a book filled with insights from other lives it simply illustrates the different demons we all have to battle within us,the daily struggle we go through to remain sane and stable ....
  I'm just a high scholar with an already planned out life all according to my vision, passion and purpose, all I've ever wanted was to finish high school in good grades and make it to college and it seemed to be going well till it crashed and my life almost got cut off right before my eyes but they say things always get together no matter how hard life gets you would always find peace and love at the end but it's not as easy as it is said after all good things don't come so easy. My name is Cheryl Jones particularly an average human a bit tall and slim just wished life gave me more to be a bit plump but anyways I appreciate my looks no matter what it's a thing I've learnt overtime . At school I've always been known to be a nerd a girl who digs her eyes into books other than to associate with people, it was just a bit uncanny of me to talk too much to people but I did have friends but the best of them all was Blair she's my best friend and practically the only one I trust with my life our meeting was a surreal one. We met at my junior year we were class mates always paired up during joint class projects and assignments so we had a little curt relationship but as usual I never really conversed with her, it happened that a day at lunch when I went to take my meal I mistakenly bumped into a girl in our school I couldn't remember her name but I knew she was one of those people who was among the top grades people at school and loved to intimidate others. Just as I bumped into her the chocolate pudding on my tray splashed on her and she couldn't even wait me to apologize before she poured the rest of the contents that the tray had on me. I was at the brink of crying it was public humiliation the whole school practically laughed at me and she called me a piece of unworthy oxygen taker, to say I was more than pained was an understatement  I ran off to the bathroom crying as I slide down the door and cried my eyes out till I almost couldn't feeling them anymore.
  Whilst crying I heard a knock and a faint calming voice telling me to open the door with I was a bit skeptical but with my still shaky hands I opened the door and before me was Blair she was a top notch girl on school, she had a very high sense of fashion but a very nice person too. She grabbed my hands and pulled me out of the bathroom even as I struggled with him using the little atom of energy I had in me.
   "come on, wipe your tears Jessica can be very mean sometimes "
   I was skeptical why she was helping me" yeah she can but why are you helping me "
She didn't answer she rummaged through her bag for something it was a sweatshirt "here, change into this for now your present one is soiled and just so you know I want to be your friend that's why I'm helping you "
To say I was shocked by her answer was an understatement " thank you "
I changed into the sweatshirt immediately and we spoke a little then went to class together from them onward we became best friends but something else also happened that day. Getting home I saw my father's car parked out seeing it gave me chills down my spine, I went inside and saw saw him and my mum laughing one thing came to my mind " so the wonderful heartless monster smiles" I wanted to move quietly up to my room so I won't be seen or noticed but my mum saw me and really had to call me.
  " Cheryl honey...... "
   " Afternoon Mom"
    " Hey dear, how was school today "
  Her words took me off guard as I recounted the events that happened earlier today I didn't answer her but looked at my father with flames in my eyes as he chuckled evilly. My mum looked in between both of us like something was wrong and yes!  Something was wrong
   " Cheryl say hello to your Dad"
I rolled my eyes in my head and said hello as I made my way upstairs but my sarcastic darling father had to call me back
  " Daughter at least give me a hug "
I felt anger rise in me me instantly " Never, thank you "
And I went to my room and jammed my door, it wasn't like I didn't love my Dad but over the years he had given me more reasons to hate him more than ever and I couldn't help it felt so hard I tried daily to find a reason to to feel comfortable in his presence but still I couldn't not now and I don't think I'd ever do so. I and my mum lived alone without my Dad I was more than grateful for that each day I wake up but of course there was more to the story right......... But presently in my head I can't see my self having a stable relationship with him, he had caused more scars and hurt than I'd ever imagine funny how it happens every time I try to let him into my heart the last time landed my mum in the hospital so really what's the point...
    I've come to realise we all put on a smile each day to his our sadness, we chose to forget our s as we find ourselves comfortable with people presence, but we all have our inner demons we fight each day to remain sane maybe those demons live behind the SHADOWS.........