Keep Your Head Up (Unedited)

Chapter 39

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I have great news to tell you guys. MY BLACK ASS IS NOT GOING TO BOARDING SCHOOL!

So y'all I will be here through my high school years, but this summer (2015) I will be gone from June-July. And a lil bit of August.

Other than that I'm here to stay!

Brianna's P.O.V.

My face scrunched up in pain. I shot my eyes open.

There Carter was on top of me.

I tried to push him off. He grabbed my arms and pinned them down to my sides.

"Carter stop!" I said in a hoarse voice

Tears started to well up in my eyes.

I'm already in pain from last night. And him being rough again less than five hours later is not helping.

I don't even know if Carter just raped me or not. I know I willingly gave myself to him, but it was so rough. I begged him to stop.

"I want babies Brianna. Six and I want them all from you. "

He has lost his damn mind. Last night he said he only wanted one.

I closed my eyes, and tried to go to a happy place.

Back when things seemed normal between us. For a moment I felt as though I was actual there. I soon came back to reality when the feeling of Carter coming inside me came.

I choked up the tears.

I put myself in tgus substitution. Should have left when I saw the first signs.

Now I have a crazy jealous possessive soon to be baby daddy.

Can't blame anyone but myself.

Carter pulled himself out of me, when layed beside me. He pulled me closur to him, and held me tightly.

I listened to his heart beat hoping it would sooth my nerves. But nothing, our realtionship is all types of fucked up.

More tears slipped out of my eyes

"Stop all that fucking crying." Carter barked at me "Now you won't test my ass. Say sone stupid shit like that again Brianna. I dare you."

I quickly wiped my tears, but more just came pouring out.

"I hate you." I said in a hoarse voice

Carter lifted up my chin forcing me to make eye contact. I just closed my eyes.

"You hate me?" Carter asked me almost as though he was asking for clarification
"Y-yes."

"Look at me." Carter order. I opened eyes and starred back at his gray eyes "All I have is love for you Brianna."

"...I-I love you too."

I know it seems crazy, but I do love Carter. Though he's done a lot to hurt me, but it's not even close to some of things Adien put me through.

Carter is my first everthing. I'm inexperienced, and also maybe a little naive and stupid.

Telling him I loce after he head a pistol to my head giving me two chioces.

Give him a baby or death.

This baby is the beginning of a life sentence with Carter.

I love him, I just longer want this relationship.

"I really wanted us to have a baby Brianna. Just not in this way."

"I'm not ready for a baby Carter. I don't want to be a teenaged mother."