Keep Your Head Up (Unedited)

Chapter 34

Brianna's P.O.V.

So I'm at some lingerie store with Scarlet and Lour.

Scarlet and Lour already picked out there stuff, and there helping me find something.

"We should miss virgin over here something white." Scarlett said looking through the racks

I rolled my eyes and continued to look

"Your a virgin Brianna?" Lour asked

"Yup!" I said poping the p "Aren't you?" I asked her

"No I lost it to Ant after two months." Lour said blushing

I frowned

"What's wrong?" Scarlett asked me

"It's just that me and Carter have been together for nine months. It will be ten soon, at the end of May.We've never done "it". He said he would be patient and wait, but how long until he gets inpatient?"

"He already is inpatient." Lour said

"Do you at least give him hand jobs or even...head?" Scarlett asked me. I shook my head no

"He has a bad case of blue balls. " Lour said with a slight chuckle

"I feel like I'm ready, but me and him aren't in a formal relationship yet."

Scarlett's eyebrows scrunched up

"You ain't take his crazy ass back yet? What are y'all waiting for? Your no longer with that loser Jacob, Carter didn't see anyone during y'all break. So what's the issue?"

"He still needs to prove somethings to me."

"Carter loves you, I can say that with out a doubt in my mind. But he isn't going to change. He has a lot of problems he is the farthest thing from sane. If anything he can't let you go because he is to emotionally attached, he doesn't want you with anyone else. His mental disorders play a big role in how he acts. How he manged to let you run around with Jacob for two months baffles me. "

Carter has a lot of mental disorders all from his dad's side of the family also.

He is bipolar and schizophrenia.

Has symptoms of ekbom syndrome, fregoli delusion, impluse control disoder, and intermittent explosive disorder.

Then there is the sparation anxiety disoder (why he can't let me, or date anyone else), panic/anxiety disoder, and obbessive-complusive personality disorder (multi-personalities).

Carter can be nice and funny. He is cool to be around. At times he acts like a five year old, then one moment he is this over protective and jealous boyfriend.

Over all he is just crazy. I know it and you know it. The only thing keeping him sane is medication. Even his doctor when he goes for routine check ups is surprised that I can mange to be in a relationship with Carter.

"My point is Brianna. Carter loves you, yes. But that jealous and possessive thing is just not going to go away. Its a part of him." Scarlett said

"If it makes you feel any better Ant is really jealous." Lour said

"Really? Ant is so level headed, compared to Jay and Carter."

"Nooo. Let me give you example I was talking on the phone to a home boy one time, and Ant asked me.who ot was when I got off the phone. I didn't have anyrhing to hid so I told him his name and how were friends. Tell me why this nigga goes missing the next day!"

Kidnapping, something Ant, Carter, and maybe even Jay have in common.

"Let me tell you about Jay. Cause this nigga is not always silly and farting rainbows. Jay was eating up all the food at our place so I had to go grocery shopping. I just grabbed this maxi dress, the moment he saw me all hell broke loose. He ripped it off and told me to stay my ass at home. I was mad but before I knew it we were making love on the floor. "