I dulled the barbs that line the wires on our home.
I pulled the blinds that were closed to keep us alone.
I dismantled the locks, breaking each piece of polished chrome.
Instead of the taste of your angry sweat, I laid in his cologne.
I pushed the doors open
and braved the storm,
but I came back,
I came back to tell you why I left the door open, why I couldn't return.
The man that craved the taste of testosterone grew within me.
The man who would die to feel his touch inside of me,
Desperate for his groin.
Desperate for a mans lips.
Desperate for the way we move hips.
The way his eyes lock into mine, and my mind feels free enough to slip.
The way my body feels relaxed.
My mind and soul collapse,
and all I feel is us two.
So I remind you sweet girl,
The love that we feel
Has never been a lie.
My shoulder may be cold,
but it's all that I can do,
When I feel a part of me is buried inside.
Happy or not,
I've steadied my thoughts,
And I can't keep holding onto you.
You deserve the world,
I have been doing my best to give it to you.
But from here till then,
I no longer believe in us two.
For our walls have become bars,
Our bed has chains,
And I feel like I no longer know how to live with you and this pain.
Girl, is the point, that I'm trying to make,
That it doesn't matter how much I'm in love with you,
That I'll always mistake,
how much love you can take,
And how much time I can't get enough with you,
It will always mean I need you,
But my heart craves men,
My body craves men,
My soul longs to halt the love for you.
I promise you sweetie,
As long as I'm living,
I will always be in love with you.
Just listen girl,
When I tell you this tale,
Love isn't always enough to rescue you.
I want to know you forever,
I'm scared of getting sour.
I want to love you for good.
So just promise me please,
If I end this with peace,
Will you hold my hand, and tell me you understood?
I can't have you hate me,
You can always blame me,
But you're always gonna be my Girl #1.
I will love you for always.
I will want you forever.
But we both know we are done.
So just love me for now,
And hold me for this moment,
Before the rest of the damage starts to begin.
YOU ARE READING
The Man Who Lived Behind The Sun
Poetry...the story of love, and being ripped apart by realizing that having a family wasn't quite in the cards. Falling from the love you found happiness in, but soon came to realize you came just a bit too short in everything you have done to keep holdin...
