First love - Chanbaek

On Me

After that day that Baekhyun met his boyfriend's mother and took Toben to Buncheon, he only saw his boyfriend for 10 minute on Christmas Day because Baekhyun was in Seoul at Sehun's house so he ran to find Chanyeol and exchange Christmas gifts. Some might argue that it wasn't romantic because it was at a 7/11 car park and it was snowing but it was romantic for both of them. Nothing much Baekhyun gave Chanyeol some candles and Chanyeol gave Baekhyun some trainers.

Today Baekhyun was back in Seoul and once again at his uncle's house but this time to check on Sehun after receiving a phone call from his aunt asking him what was wrong with her son.

"Sehun..." Baekhyun opened the door of his cousin's bedroom who was pretending to be sleeping covered from head to toe "What happened" he slapped his cousin's butt.

He looked at Vivi sleeping next to Sehun. Both of them should be models but Sehun doesn't like cameras and Vivi doesn't like other dogs.

"I'm tired." He said under the covers.

"Hyung is worried about you, Kai and Soo are worried about you I came all the way from my parents's house just to see you"  Baekhyun said but Sehun didn't move he knew it wouldn't work so he has a plan B "I bought boba tea." Sehun took his head under the blankets to make sure that he was not being tricked. "Hmm." Baekhyun shook the cup and Sehun's quick hands took it and set on the bed ready to drink his precious bubble tea.

One sip and he opens the safe.

"It's so hard..." there you go "I feel like I don't fit in... my parents are great, the best at doing what they do you know?" Sehun said after the first sip. "My dad is one of the highest ranks in the navy and he has done amazing things for this country and that's why he gets rewarded everywhere for everything right?..."

Baekhyun knows that, at the end of the day it's his uncle, his mother's older brother. The sunshine of the family. He fought for this country and he is well known and respected for that. Baekhyun is sure that hus uncle is going to be on history books.

"And my mom is just a fucking Olympic champion... figure skating is not easy, representing the entire country and win not 1 but 3 gold medals and I'm not even talking about the ones she won as a junior and my hyung is another Olympic champion and I'm here not good just mediocre." Sehun said "I love dancing and ballet is my life but I'm not good at it... Last week I returned to full on practice to catch up but I felt miserable... Everyone was doing better than me I failed and felt angry many times."

"You always fail and fall until you get it right. Also fit in is for losers, that's why you don't fit in. You belong. You belong in this family you belong. Don't crack your edges to fit in because you already belong." Baekhyun said.

Baekhyun himself also struggled wanting to fit in specially on his second year of high school, everyone was dating but girls didn't attract him so he prepared to like them. After that he pretended to have a girlfriend from another school so he wouldn't look suspicious. Until on the third year he was dragged out of the closet... And that loud personality of his didn't help him fit in.

"This time was different, I was scared." Sehun said and Baekhyun raised his eyebrow. "I don't know I'm scared of another injury and having to sit back again and stay behind again and lose my work rhythm. Also how do I know if I belong?" Sehun confessed.

"You dance since you are 4 years old and you are not even 22 years old yet and you did a lot already, you are well known already for your skills, technique, talent... how hard you work and specially your passion." Baekhyun said. "Don't pressure yourself too much and don't stop enjoying it because... your passion... if you are scared of injuries you will never recover your work flow."