The Forbearance Wife

Chapter 3

WE tend to endure all the pain when it comes to the people we love. And that's what I did, I endure all the pain I've been feeling for the past five months. The pain was inflicted on me, but I couldn't do anything because I love him and promised to take care of him.

"Lyle, tama na. Pagod na ako." I whispered after we had sex. In the past months, we did it countless times. I knew to myself that he was just using me to satisfy his earthly needs, and I'm okay with it. Siguro dahil kasama 'yon sa pagiging asawa ko, ang pasiyahin siya at ibigay ang lahat ng pangangailangan niya.

"This is your responsibility as a wife, you shouldn't complain." He said bluntly before kissing me again. I closed my eyes and give him more access on my neck. Hindi na ako nagreklamo at ilang ulit pa niya akong inangkin. After we did it, tumayo ito at nagbihis ng damit bago lumabas ng kwarto ko.

I sighed before closing my eyes. I felt my tears slowly running down my cheeks. Agad ko iyon pinali at bumangon. I felt sore, but I manage to stand up and took a shower. After kong mag-shower ay natulog na ako. I woke up early the next morning. Kahit masakit ang balakang ay tumayo pa rin ako para magluto ng breakfast niya.

I prepared fried rice and tapa for breakfast. Nag timpla na rin ako ng kape nito dahil narinig ko na ang yabag nito pababa sa hagdan. When he reached the dining area, he glances at me before sitting on the chair. Tahimik niyang ininom ang kape niya habang nagbabasa ng kung ano sa iPad nito. I sat beside him and started eating.

"Aalis pala ako ngayon," I said, he glanced at me again and raise his brow at me. Waiting for me to continue talking. "Ngayon kasi ang interview ko. Nag-apply ako sa Bright Step." I said, smiling.

"You don't need to work." He spoke. The smile faded on my face when he said those words. I looked at him with a confused face. "Just do your responsibilities as a wife. If you need money, just tell me. Just stay here." He added before standing and leaving me with my mouth half opened.

Tulala ako habang nakatitig sa mesa. He had already left the house since I heard his car roaring its engine out of our garage. I felt tears running down my cheeks.

It's okay, Iya. Maybe your husband wants you to focus on him. He doesn't want you to be stressed at work.

Kahit walang lakas ay pinilit kong tumayo at iligpit ang pinagkainan. Pagkatapos ay tinungo ko ang sala para kunin ang cellphone. I immediately called Criza to inform her that I will not pursue my application in Bright Step. It saddened me because it is my dream, pero mas kailangan kong unahin ang asawa ko.

"Hello?" Bungad ni Criza ng sagutin ang tawag.

"Nasaan ka na?" I asked. I heard her squealing in the other line. She sounds very excited.

"I'm on my way to Bright Step na. Ikaw ba?" She asked back. Naramdaman ko ang paghapdi ng mata ko, tanda ng pagluha ko. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from sobbing.

"U-Uh, h-hindi na ako tutuloy," I said while biting my lower lip so she will not hear my sniffles and sobs.

"W-What!? This is your dream, Moriah! Bakit hindi ka tutuloy? May nangyari ba? Sabihin mo," sabi niya sa kabilang linya. I shook my head as if she could see it.

"Wala! I just realized that I just need to focus on Lyle, sa ngayon." I said and let out a deep sigh.

I know that she won't buy my excuses. Criza has been my friend since high school. She knows me more than I know myself, but I don't care. Mas mahalaga ang asawa ko ngayon, I'm a married woman and I must prioritize him than anything else.

"He didn't allow you to work, Iya? You graduated with flying colors and passed the bar exams. You even topped the boards. You worked hard for this, Iya! Hindi puwede 'to. You can't have it both ways!" I can feel her anger over the line. Mas lalong tumulo ang luha ko dahil sa sinabi niya, but I don't have any choice.