The Japanese Mafia

The choice

The next morning I wake up having my decision in my head ready I get out of bed, walk to my suitcase I bring it to the floor I open it up I grab casual clothes I zip it back up. I put my suitcase back I go in the bathroom and changes I come back out seeing trois "good morning". He says in a solemn tone. I say "good morning where's honey". He put his hands in his pockets looking at me like he has bad news to give me "he actually told me to get you he's in his office". He says scared.

I nod and asks "where is it"? He puts his hand in front of him and says "follow me". I nod again and walks out he comes behind me then he walks swiftly in front of me he goes down the stairs with me following him until we stop to a door that was downstairs underneath the stairs. I have a flashback of when bee came after me I screamed his name and he came out of this door hugging me "bella"? Trois asks confused.

I look at trois and says "thank you". He nods and leaves I knock on the door and says "honey it's me". No answer I knock again and says with guilt in my tone "honey I'm sorry about yesterday if your mad at me I understand but let me know your here so I know I ain't talking to myself". Still no answer I go to knock again but my eyes tear up my heart begins to pound and ache in agony with guilt.

I put my fist down I put my back against the door I slide down it sitting against the door and my head with my knees feeling like I do everything wrong. I close my eyes visioning getting tied up and getting tortured because of everything I did in life. I didn't come to my sister's rescue, my brother killed himself because my parents died, my parents died because they were going to get my other brother I didn't know about just to protect me, and now I lost the one person that made me felt alive again because of my actions.

I begin to feel lonely with agony and depression I shoot my head up "no no no you ain't going there again I'm gonna tell him how I feel". I get up I turn around and opens the door I walk in seeing it's empty I get confused I close the door behind me and sees his desk with two chairs one in front of it and one behind it where he would sit. I look around I see no one I frown "where is he I thought he wanted to talk to me"?

"I do". I jump and scream I turn behind me I see honey leaning against the wall shirtless with black sweatpants I gulp and asks scared with my heart racing "Jesus why didn't you answer me or why didn't you tell me where you were"? He hangs his head still leaning on the wall with his arms folded and says "I was behind the door I just decided to hide to see what you would do". I look at his hair then to some of his face I can see I ask "why didn't you answer me when I knocked"?

He sniffles and says "I couldn't answer". I feel a pit of guilt in my stomach with my heart in agony again I say "listen I'm sorry I just was hurt and a little angry about last night". He lifts his head up he looks at me I see his eyes red and puffed up with black circles around his eyes I gasp and ask "did you sleep"? He shrugs his shoulders like he doesn't care then he hangs his head again hiding that he's crying.

I walk to him slowly and says "honey". He doesn't answer when I get in front of him I touch his arm I say "hon-". I get cut off when I get slammed against the wall by my arm and I see honey looking at me crying he says "you hurt me by leaving you made me throw things and break things in the garage you made my heart ache I cried and stayed up all night I couldn't sleep". He squeezes my arm tighter I wince in pain I say "listen calm down I'm not leaving you".

His tightness from my arm becomes lighter his eyes become his soft green then he just puts his forehead on my chest laying it there. I put my hand through his hair and massages his head he then puts his arms around my body he nuzzles against my chest I smile I put my other arm around him I say "if your gonna sleep you might fall because your standing up". He lifts his head up he looks at me and says groggily "I don't wanna walk". I say smiling "you don't have to there's a sofa in here".

He lets go of me he slumps walk to the sofa he lays down he looks at me sadly and says "come here and sleep". I walk over to him and says "there's not room for two people". He gets up he harshly grabs my wrist and throws me on the sofa I look at him he looks at me then he lays on my chest putting his arms underneath me locking them. I look at the ceiling playing with his hair and rubbing his back I think to myself about what he would've done if I went with my second choice leaving and never forgiving him.

I shiver then gulp thinking about him getting angry and tying me up in the basement or doing insane things like keeping me locked up in my room that's his I smile at the thought that he cares and loves me I look at him sleeping on me snuggling into my body and knowing he's sleeping not hurting anyone or himself. I get lost in thought for a couple hours until I hear honey mumble.

I look at him I rub his forehead and says "honey". He holds onto me tighter and yells in his sleep "YOU'RE NOT TAKING HER"! I say scared "honey wake up I'm right here". He continues to yell "SHINJI LEAVE HER ALONE"! I shake honey and raises my voice "Honey I'm right here wake up". He cries in his sleep and says "don't do that again I love you". I stop shaking him a tear runs down my cheek and says whispering "I love you too". I get frightened when I hear "you don't have to whisper".

I look at honey which is looking at me I blush profusely he says "there she is there's my baby girl". I smile and say "and there's my daddy". He cocks his eyebrow up and asks smiling "that's what your gonna call me right"? I nod and says "yes daddy". He lifts up his head he kisses my lips and I kiss back feeling tingles and sparks on my lips. He pulls back he looks at me and says "it's time to brand you". I tilt my head and asks "what"?

He chuckles and says "it's another term for letting other guys and gals know who you belong to in your case it's guys unless your into girls as well". I shake my head no he smiles I ask "how do I get branded is it like a tattoo"? He smiles mischievous and says "yes but there's no needle or color it's like branding cattle but instead you get my symbol of branding which means your mine".

My eyes almost pop out of my head I say with a screech in my tone "WHAT YOUR GONNA PUT A HOT POKER INTO ME WHICH WILL HURT AND LEAVE A SCAR ON ME"! He says "no it can be cold and yes a scar but it has to show so other people can see it but you can pick the spot". I say "wait a minute you want to brand me". He says "yes but if you want I can let you think about it". I think about it for a few minutes and says "alright I want it on my thigh". He smiles evily like I made a deal with a devil himself and says "perfect".

He lets go of my body he sits up I sit up as well he smiles looking at me and asks "when you wanna get it done"? I say "tomorrow I'm pretty whipped". He nods and says "no problem". I ask "I know this is off topic but who's shinji"? His body tenses his eyes go dark and his hand forms into a fist I say apologetically "I'm sorry I just heard you say the name in your sleep". He looks at me and says "he's my brother". I gasp and what he says next is heart dropping.