Negan's daughter (CarlXreader)

I am still alive

Recap:  "I will get the fuck out of here and when the fuck I do, I'm going to fucking kill you, and I will protect what left I have. I promise."

Carl's POV

I enter Alexandria, I looked great, I was, tired pissed, annoyed, I looked all over the place, real thoughts are going through my head here.

'she had to have left back to Negan, where else would they go? does their sister know? does anybody know? did anyone see them leave?'

I'm running around Alexandria like a chicken with its head cut off.

"Carl!" my dad smells for me, the sound of his voice right now, I'm a bit annoyed by it but even so. I turn in an instant and I'm sprinting my way to him, holding my hat down on my head and keeping my hand on my gun holster so it doesn't just fly out.

"Did you find Y/N? Juliana is looking for them."

'I'm uncomfortable.' I thought.

'this just makes me feel 100 times better about the situation, and here I was hoping Y/N would her with their fucking sister.'

"No actually I was going to Look for Juliana to see maybe she knew or if she might know where they are. ive looked for hours and I can't find them, they aren't on the outside of the gate, and I've checked further back and nothing." I ramble, im nervous, im fucking nervous.

"you went outside the gate?" He questions with tired, and irritable expression.

Not the point, besides, I had to go looking for them because you thought it would be cool to piss them off." I snarl.

my dad is having none of it, he's not in the mood for my bullshit or anyone else. my dad just stands there with his head hung low, he's rubbing his eyes, almost saying, living or dead, I will still slap the shit out of you. i've never been intimated by him, he never put fear in me, intentionally but he has definitely made me feel he isn't someone you are supposed to fuck with. My dad has a lot of respect from those that know him and a lot of respect because a lot fear him, it irritates me a bit but I just don't speak much anymore.

He's right, living or dead, he's my dad and he is other than my sister he is the last bit of old world I have now. Saving him and being next to him is my position but I don't think it needs to be a position for war, but a peace of mind. There's too much death here now, I'm tired of it, it just makes me angry being in the mist of death, that is all this world has left. what happened to trying to save it, now we just...

"Carl." And out comes Enid.

"you shouldn't talk to your dad like that." she says looking at my like im the fucked up one here.

'Bitch... seriously? I'm- will fucking shoot.' I grit my teeth at her and just start to walk the other direction. My body's hot and sticky, I'm irritated, frustrated, i'm worried, and I kind think straight. when did we just say fuck you to every person who tried to help us. I take a giant deep breath and shut my eyes, trying to relax but I can't. There is not much else I could look, other than hill top and well the Saviors themselves... well there is a thought I guess I could do that.

YOUR POV

"Y/N! where are you baby doll. We were talking, where did you go? we have a lot we still need to talk about. Don't you want to know how I was able to still keep an eye on you? all that time you were in never in any real danger. Didn't I teach you to do better than this? we dont run and hide that's what your bitch of a mother taught you. I taught you how to fucking fight now come the fuck out and fight me you, show me that you haven't grown soft on me. Y/N! COME THE FUCK OUT NOW!" I can't tell where his voice is coming from its making me nervous, I can't even focus over the sound of my own heart beat. its so fucking loud and its in my hears. I have my gun aimed at the door, right in the middle, the minuet that fucking doorknob turns I will fucking kick and shoot. I don't have to kill him right away, I just need to get the fuck out before he can fucking get me that us all.