why does she hate herself? vh

004- the talk

thoughts in bold

destiny's pov

"Are you walking Emily?" I look at her.

"No actually, I have cheer practice. I need to be there earlier since I'm the captain." She explains.

"Ohh got it" I smile.

"What time is it?" She asks. I pull out my phone, only to see a message from johnathan. I stop walking to comprehend what I had just seen.

"You... okay?" Emily asks worriedly.

"Uh yeah" I smile. "It's 3:34" I look up from my phone.

"Oh shit I gotta go! See you later dessie!" She jogs to the field, looking back while waving goodbye. I wave back at her.

Johnathan?

I unlock my phone again and open the message.

john alvarado
hey destiny :)
ik this is weird but i really wanna talk to you
meet me somewhere??

dess🌬️
hi
i'm down
where?

john alvarado
thank you
beach?
i'll pick u up wya?

dess🌬️
yes
i'm still at school, like by the side of the field

john alvarado
okay i'm going

dess🌬️ loved your message

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A few minutes pass before I see his black jeep. He drives up next to me. I get in the car nervously.

"hi dess" he smiled.

"hi" I smile trying not to make eye contact. I put my seatbelt on then he drives off.

The car ride wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be. Johnathan put on some music, so I just looked out the window.

We arrive to the beach and get off. The weather was fresh, windy too.

"Destiny, I'm so sorry." He started.

"You've said, like a million times." I say coldly.

"It was never my intention to ghost you" he continues.

"Oh really." I scoff.

"Destiny, please" He begs.

"We were on a break johnathan! Not broken up." I say.

"And I know that, but I couldn't handle it dess." He looks down.

"Oh my gosh! You're still on about that? You were never even supposed to know." I roll my eyes.

"Yeah? So you were just gonna keep hurting yourself till what? Till you got to what point dess? Huh? What would've happened?" He furrowed his brows. I stop looking at him.

What would've happened?

"Destiny I loved- I love you. How the fuck was I supposed to let you keep doing that shit?" He came closer to me. I avoid all eye contact. He sighs.

"It wasn't ever my intention to ghost you. I was losing my fucking mind, I couldn't understand why you would ever do that to yourself. I couldn't understand why you wouldn't tell me. I couldn't understand why you kept all your emotions to yourself." He takes a hold of my hand. I look up at him.

"I'm so fucking sorry destiny." He looks into my eyes.

"It's okay" I smile. "Friends?" I ask.

"For now." He smiles.

"Shut up" I cover my face before he could catch a glimpse of my grin. He puts his arm around my head and I put my arm around his waist. We start walking closer to the water.

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short but very important chapter 😼

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btw they went on a break because he found out she was cutting (just to clarify)

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