Our toxic love🖤🥂

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I cried for a little until I got numb, why did I have to go and ruin everything. It was going perfect but obviously I had to go and fuck it up again. He wasn't innocent but he didn't have to bring her along to make me jealous anyone but her. It was currently 11:38pm and most people were still at the party so I decided to sneak out. I put my sliders on and sneaked along the hall,I knew Millie had a bottle of vodka in here suitcase and I had a spare key so I decided to borrow it. I opened her room door and searched her suitcase "jackpot" i grinned. I slipped it in my pocket and wrote Millie a note.

I promise I'll give you it back or pay you, hope you have a good night and can't wait for tomorrow.
Love you
Y/n<3

I locked the door behind me and walked quietly back to my room, I reached my room and threw everything on the bed. I went back to lock the door until I heard Phil outside, I decided to eavesdrop. "Jack mate, I hope your night with Millie went will but I've fucked it will Y/n any ideas on to fix it?" He spoke from the hall. "Jacko! Your brilliant thanks mate" he shut his door. I heard his footsteps approaching so I quickly locked the door. I walked to the bath room and put the tap on, added bubbles and grabbed a towel. I placed my towel and phone on the toilet lid and slipped off my dress. I got in the burning bubble bath with vodka in my hand, I sipped away at the full bottle. I said and thought about everything, "it's always my fault isn't it" i cried out swallowing a gulp. I thought to myself,I never knew I could feel so much pain and yet be so in love with the person causing it. I picked up the razor blade once again and cut deeper than ever in my thigh. I ran over my thighs until I was lying in a blood bath, I continued to drink from the bottle as the burning sensation hit my throat and the warm water piled in my cuts. I sighed in relief the pain gave me something else to feel other than numbness. The bath began to turn cold and my eyes fluttered shut, I got out and wrapped myself in a towel. I lay on my bed and checked the time 1:45am, I put the tv on began to doze off.

Phil pov

I walked back to my room and fell into a deep daydream, I couldn't stop dreaming about her beautiful smile and glowing eyes. I had to get her back or even show her I'll give her the space but I still care. I looked out the window and it was raining I decided to take a walk and clear my mind. I got dressed and called jack,

Phil- Jack mate, I hope your night with Millie went will but I've fucked it will Y/n any ideas on to fix it?
Jack- she's wonderful it's amazing, I think you just write her a note leave a bunch of flowers at the door and a breakfast and just explain your feelings in the note I don't know I'm pretty wreaked
Phil-Jacko! Your brilliant thanks mate
I ended the call and went for my walk. It began to heavy rain so I grabbed a football and went out to shoot. After awhile I got tired so I wrote the note, when writing it I realised I'd never felt anything like this before and I'd anything to keep a hold of it. I knew I was bound to fuck up again and again but I couldn't help myself, just like she said. I knew her favourite flowers and breakfast but I had to double check with Millie.

Werido🙄💜

Phil
Hey freak, need your help x

Werido🙄💜
Omg omg Eminem's in my DMS, kidding bro what's up?x

Phil
Pishing my self of laughter over here btw, does Y/n have any new favourite flowers or breakfast or is it still the same?x

Werido🙄💜
I'm the funniest ever😆 it's still the same shes never grew out of it lol whyyyy x

Phil
You'll know all abt it tomorrow please don't tell her tho x