All In My Head | C.D

Thursday, April 9

I was awakened by the sound of the TV downstairs playing a movie. Then I realized Cam was here, obviously. So were the girls because I heard Cam talking to them.

Anyways, I tried moving slowly and eventually got out of bed perfectly fine, even if there was slight pain, making it to the door and walking out.

"Jas? Lauren? Anyone?!" I call, walking towards the stairs. I heard footsteps and I knew they were coming.

The first to appear at the bottom of the stairs was Cam. I held onto the railing walking slowly down the stairs so I won't fall. The pain suddenly got stronger and it was getting slightly unbearable.

When I got to the bottom, I held onto Cam's shoulder and he walked me to the couch.

"What do you want to eat, El?" Jasmine asked. I laughed, "Just cereal for now, thanks," I say.

She walks back into the living room, taking a seat next to me as she handed me the cereal bowl.

I ate in silence, watching the TV. I didn't know what I was watching, but it was about a boy who was looking for whoever had murdered his father.

The others were talking while I was zoning out.

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Lauren and Jasmine left a few hours later, and it was getting late, so it was just Cam and I. He sat next to me and wanted to cuddle but I turned him down easy. It was pretty clear he was upset, because I would've usually accepted, but it's different now.

We sat there watching TV, and that was all you could hear. Things were getting really awkward.

Just then, the lights went out and I jumped slightly. Cam moved closer to me and held me.

"Um, Cam? What are you doing?" I asked, squished in his grip.

"It's dark and I remember how you used to freak out when your dad would turn out the lights while we were playing.." He trails off. I smile slightly at the thought of my father.

He died years ago, when I was only 4 and Catherine was 1. She hasn't met him yet, well she has, but she can't remember anything about him.

I pushed Cam away slightly, "I'm- I'm alright. It just startled me, that's all,"

He nods and let's go of me.

"So, uh-" I was cut off when I felt lips on mine. My eyes went wide when I realized what was happening three seconds later. I pushed Cam off and looked at him like he was crazy, standing up, despite the pain coming from my wound.

He was looking at me like he didn't know what happened.

"El, I'm so so sorry," he apologized, standing up and holding his arms out like he was trying to stop me from attacking.

"What was that for?!" I yelled, "You have a girlfriend, for fucks sake, Cameron!"

He looks at me with hurt and an apologetic look.

"I'm- I didn't know,-" I cut him off, "How did you not know?! Cam, you can't just kiss me like that! You have a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend!"

He looks down in shame and shakes his head, "I'm sorry."

I huff, "Leave." He looks up at me again, "What? No, I can't leave! I need to make sure you're alright!" He exclaims.

"I'll be fine. Just- Just leave," I say, shooting him an angry glare. He stands there for a few minutes and walks past me, grabbing his sweater, phone, keys and wallet. I turn around to face the door as soon as it closes.

This wasn't supposed to happen...

Cam's P.O.V

I don't know what took over me.

Ella just looked so...I don't know, cute? Yeah, I'll go with that.

She looked so cute sitting there and it was hard not to kiss her.

I ran home as quick as possible, feeling like I was about to throw up.

I sighed shakily when I got home.

The friendship we had was already broken, there must've been a slight chance that it could've been fixed, but I damaged it more than I should have....

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Double update! I don't know if I'm going to post tomorrow, but I will try(: Bye, ily! -Cathy x ❤️