Heavenly Mistake

6 - Stay strong

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I ran towards the restroom and locked myself in a cubicle and started to cry my eyes out . It was my first time being called such evil words and that for something that I never did ! How could she insult me like that ? She didn't know how much I was suffering mentally .. and his son was put in a tight spot by Craily ..not me ..why did this all happen to me ?? Even that handsome jerk didn't help me ...

I cried and cried until I ran out of tears and wiped my tears trying to come out of the cubicle and wash my face .It was past the school time and now most of the staff and students must have left the school..Just when my hand was on the door knob , I heard the door of the restroom creaking open and some loud voices ..

"I never thought that Loona would do something like that ! "

"Yeah , it disgusts me , she was pleading for affection from one of her own students ! Eeek!!!"

"She doesn't deserve to be called a teacher .. it disgraces even us ! "

"If I were her , I would have died of embarrassment .."

"I never thought that there was a wh*re hidden behind that cheerful personality. What a shame "

Their conversation was totally focused on how much of a sl*utty b*tch I was and I had to listen to it until they left the rest room..Tears were escaping my puffy eyes non stop when they bad mouthed me, I had never felt so low before and I lt felt as if everything that I have built was stumbling down...my so called colleagues , my reputation, my self respect , my everything ...but I didn't want to give up on myself for some groundless rumors , no , this Loona is not such a fragile person , I will be strong..

My mind kept going back and forth ..

I slowly opened the door and forced my self out of the school very fast making sure that no one noticed me and sped towards the only place where I can have some privacy , my little apartment. I had a myriad of things to think about and I badly wanted some time alone ..

The small walk to my apartment felt like hundred hours and I was finally there , my warm cozy apartment..

I entered to my warm paradise but suddenly I felt alone , it felt as if I was expecting someone , as if there was a missing piece which mattered alot ..

'what is wrong with you Loona ? You lived alone !!'

I erased those strange thoughts from my mind and went to take a shower ..as much as I wanted to cry my eyes out , I had no tears left to cry ..once I entered the bathroom , I found the missing piece ,, it was him ..as much as I hated to admit it , I expected to see him again ..him soap's fragrance hadn't left my bathroom and I sadly breathed it in ...I hated to admit it but I missed that handsome jerk , that devilish handsome jerk ..

'what the heck Loona, if he helped you you wouldn't have been so embarrassed today , you wouldn't have lost your monthly salary , you wouldn't have to work overtime , you wouldn't have to listen to those harsh words , you wouldn't have to beat those killing gazes ..why do you miss that jerk ? '

Yes , if he had helped me , I won't be this broken .. how could I miss him ?

I forced myself to forget that jerk and I let the warm water and my favorite lavender scented soap sooth me ..warm water and soothing fragrances really could relax people ...

After freshening up , I had to think about my future ... Rather than crying , regretting and hating , I had to be there for myself .. even if the whole world was against me , I had to be there for myself ...

As my salary for this month is cancelled , I had to find a part time job and I had to work at night since I had to work at school for an overtime session..

With those thoughts , I took my laptop and climbed on to my bed and started to search for part time jobs that could help me manage my finances and It had to be decent enough that I was a teacher ..

'a teacher ...yes I am a teacher ..but they told that I was not fit to be one ..'

Before those thoughts start to hurt me , I quickly snapped out of it and continued browsing ..

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Next day

I got up as usual and left for school after finishing my morning routine ..I was quiet happy as I got myself somewhat decent part-time job , after trying out for several jobs , I was hired as personal tutor by a small academy and I had to go to houses and tutor for the assigned student . Though I got about half of my usual salary I still could mange it with my savings ...

The time at school was not better than yesterday .. I still had to bear gazes that held hatred and disgust towards me , the staff smiled infront of my face but I heard them bad mouthing me many times to confirm that most of them despised me ..Even the students looked at me as if I was a psycho and several students didn't forget to throw sarcastic remarks at me .. I struggled alot but kept quiet as I didn't want to quarrel with my students ..

Finally the school time was finished and most went to home while I had to stay at school to tutor some students with low grades .. My colleagues didn't think twice to give their extra work loads to me as I was assigned to work for extra hours ..I wondered if it was Craily who made everyone despise me so much because I was never hurtful to anyone. I didn't know what I did to receive such a cruel punishment..

Instead of walking home , I went to the academy where I signed up for tutoring .. today I had to help some students at the academy with their maths problems and it was around 8.30pm when it was finished..

I was too tired to do anything and I went straight to bed after having a bath and the thought that I had to do this for three weeks more just made me even more tired ..soon sleep payed me a visit and I quickly embraced that warm darkness and peace ..

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2weeks later

It has been two weeks since I started getting my beloved punishment..(note the sarcasm )I struggled alot during the first week as I had to go through all this trouble for no fair reason but with time I got adapted to the conditions and found myself two new friends who are genuinely nice to me...however...still I am dignified with hateful gazes and cruel words but somehow I started to be immune to them .. at least physically ..

There were times when I broke in to uncontrollable sobs once I got home nevertheless I never displayed any signs of weakness infront of others ..

I never wanted them to feel satisfied..never..

Today I had to go to a house to tutor a kid ..It was a little boy and he was kind though his parents merely respected me ..but I was used to it so that really didn't matter that much ..After helping the little boy with mathematics, I started to make my way to my warm little apartment. The little boy's house was somewhat close to my neighborhood so I walked on my foot but I was a little bit scared too as I had to pass a scary alley. There was no solid reason but I feared that alley when I was arriving earlier ..It put my heart at unease ..

Anyways , I was excited to have a yummy dinner after long hours of continuous work ..I hadn't had dinner for several days now as I slept as soon as possible once I arrived at my apartment but today I wanted to treat myself ..So I erased that feeling of uneasiness and happily walked towards my neighborhood but as soon as I neared the scary alley, something made me freeze ..

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