World In US

04 Only Memories.

The night felt so long. So many memories came flushing to me. The nightmares became even worse. I could hear all of them talking downstairs. My head is throbbing. Now i'm lying in my room, on my bed, not knowing what to do. What should i do after what happened? Should i pretend that nothing happened ? This is like my worst nightmare but only when I'm awake. I couldn't sleep the night. Most of the night i was awake. Listen to the darkness. It's like it was talking to me. Only it was in my head. Am i going insane ?

Usually at this time, i'd be up already. Making breakfast. Joking around. Possibly killing some monsters. But now. In a very long time. I don't want to do anything like that. At least today. I just want to spend my time in my room. But i can't. I want to sleep. But i can't. I want to cry. But i won't. I pick up my phone to look at the time. It's 10:40 almost 11 Am. I sigh.
'This is gonna be a long day' i say to myself out loud. And then i hear a knock at my door.

"Are you awake ?" I hear my moms voice coming through the doors.
"No..." i answer to her.
"Can i come in ?" She asks. Well it's not like its my house anyways.
"Sure" i say and the doors open and my mom comes in. I sit up on the bed and she sits down by me on the edge of the bed.
"How are you doing ?" She asks.
"I'm fine." I answer. It was a lie. I'm not fine. I haven't been fine for a long time. She waits a bit before saying.
"It wasn't your fault." and looks down and continues.
"It was mine..." i look at her.
"It wasn't your fault." I say and put my hand over hers. Everyone is blaming themselves, putting themselves in so much pain that it's even harder.

"She was with me. Not you. You weren't there when it happened." She says softly.
"You said she should come with me. And i said no." I say and pause.
"I just ,should have let her come with me... nothing like this would have happened..." i say looking at her. She doesn't answer.
"Are you okey ?" I ask her.
She's stronger then i am. And we all can see that.  She's like a rock, untouched. No emotions showing.
"I have to be strong for us. We have to be strong for us..." she says and part of that is true. But sometimes you just have to know when to be strong and when not to.

She looks at me.
"We have to talk about what the werewolf said... i believe you heard him..." she says and i sigh. I thought she'd forget it. Shit.
I was about to protest when she cut me off.
"Eira, we are talking about it. And that's final." She says and i just look at her.
"I didn't even say anything..." i argue ...
"You were about to..." she says and stands up.
"Be downstairs in 15. Alright..." she says and i nod. She's my mother. Of course i'm gonna do what she says. I respect her and i love her. She's the only thing i have left.

When she left the room , i quickly got up and went to shower. So much of a day in bed huh. I showered and did my hair and got dressed, and went downstairs. It was more then 15 minutes...Everyone was already sitting in the living room and when i entered the room, everyones eyes were on me. I just stood there like 'have you not seen a child ?' I rolled my eyes and sat on the chair in the middle of the room.
"So you heard what the werewolf said ?" My mother asks and i just nob in an agreement.
"What is it ? What do they want ?" Dean just straight forward shoots his questions...
"I can't say..." i say and lower my head.
If i tell them, they will be in danger too. And they most certainly will want to have it.
"What do you mean you can't say it. ? " Mary asks.
"Look, i know you just want to help... but i don't need help, the more people know about it, the worse the possibility of everyone dying. " i say in a chilly voice.
"There's not much of humans left on this planet. If they get it, the rest of the human race will be dead..." i say to them.
"It's safer with me..." i continue not letting anyone else speak.
"Is it ?" Sam asks. I just sigh.
"Is it really that great that bunch of werewolves are coming after you ? " Sam continues. I'm not dumb. I know the possibility of having that thing but if it means that no one else gets hurt. I'm gonna take it.
"I know how it sounds okey ." I say.
"How did you find it anyways ?" Mary asks.
"It was before Lucifer and his demons attacked. Me and my friend were out in the woods. We were walking home, when I noticed something. I wanted to go and check out and she didn't. She was scared. So i went alone while she waited for me on the path. When i got to it, there was a note with it..." i say .
"What the note said ?" Mum asks.
"I spend my whole life protecting it, now whoever finds it , you have to protect it." I say.
"Something like that, i don't really remember, it was more then  4 months ago." I continue.
"Just tell us what it is." Dean says.
"If i say, you will want me to give it to you... witch i won't..." i say to his face. It's like his eyes are burning through mine trying to find the answers that he's looking for. You can get lost in them. But most of all, all i see is a scared man, who has been through so much in the past that he just wants for everything to be over. He want to be happy and understood...  I quickly look away from him and close my eyes. I take a deep breath and breath out. I open my eyes and all i see is my sister sitting in front of me, all bloody and dead. I jump up from my chair and close my eyes again.  I take couple more deep breaths , my hands are shaking and at some point it feels like my breath is stuck in my mouth and won't come out.

I open them again when i feel someones hand on my shoulder.
She's gone. I look around the room trying to find her again but nothing. My hands are now shaking even more and my breathing is uneven.

I look up at the person who's holding my shoulder and it's Dean. My vision becomes blurry with each second. And all i can think about is her. The last thing i see is my mom in front of me and then i close my eyes and black out.

A VOICE IN THE DARK SAYS.

WAKE UP...

and then it fades.