As the frigid and strong wind pass
I look at the zenith, I can be free atlast!
Honestly speaking, I can't endure more suffering
So just let it be, make me meet my ending
How can I face what tomorrow may bring?
If it feels like I'm not even breathing?
My body's arouse every morning
Yet my soul inside is dying
Living a life is literally living hell
Questioning if I really had a guardian angel
Did my decisions in the past, lead me to a serene nap?
Or made a wrong move, that changed all of it in just a snap?
I won't go through shits, that's what's I'm believing
For years that belief is what I've been keeping
Everything felt surreal, like I'm just dreaming
But the truth is slapping me, all of this is happening.
Smiling widely while I am there crying
Acting so good, feigning the mask they're wearing
They're in the state of pleasure, while I'm in a paltry
All they do seems to be pure ghastly
Looking at the good side in all the bad things
That's me, but I've lost, got tired of searching
I'm stuck in a million of thoughts, barely escaping
But I was wrong, I'm in a room hardly crawling.
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