Breathe

Part 5

JUNE'S POV

I try to find Wanda's mind in the sea of thoughts, when I find her I don't read her. I want her to hear me, I'll only enter if she gives me permission. <Wanda, it's June. I would love to try something this evening, if you don't trust me it's okay. I need to show you something> I wait and hope to get something in return. Maybe I failed or she is just done with me, but I tried it. So I just wait, and hope she comes soon. 

At 2:34 am she's there "Hi June, I couldn't come down earlier I'm sorry" her smile lights up the room. "I want to try something, but I kinda need you to trust me and sit down.", I sit down on the floor so she can follow my lead. I look into her eyes before I start again, "At night dreams and memories fill these rooms, I've never shared it with someone, but I hope it works. It's truly magnificent", Wanda just nods and stays quiet. <What if I fuck up? This is a bad idea> I close my eyes and let the emerald green find it's way and discover the room, "Okay I'm ready.". I open my eyes to see a room filled with the familiar color and can't help but smile. The sparks somehow find their way and start forming images, the dreams are now running around the room. The memories follow, only happy ones. Children, old lovers, sweet loved ones run in my cell, now I'm full on crying and smiling like an idiot. "Can you see the girl right there? That's Esther" I point to the figure I'm so madly in love with. Esther is dancing, no floating, she's absolutely the most beautiful memory in the whole wide world. "June, could you show me my brother? If you can't that's fine I want you to see him" Wanda has tears in her eyes and I nod. He's tall and reading in a book Wanda starts crying, not the type of tears someone gets when they experience a traumatic event, the tears you spill when you remember those who are never coming back.  

Esther and Wandas brother, Pietro, are still in the room. He's reading, she dancing, it's 6 am and everyone is slowly waking up. Wanda and I spend the night watching the two figures "When Esther died, I became this monster who was numb for every emotion. She was what made life worth it, she showed me how lovely it could be. I only knew her in the Red Room, but even there, she made it okay, she made me okay.". Wanda nods and holds my hand "Pietro was the thing I admired most, I would've done anything if he asked me to. I was so angry at myself when he died and I was angry at him. I had the feeling that nothing would become better. The Avengers took me in, gave me a home, I really believed I was alone after his death. I'm never truly alone, I have a family now, and no it will never make what happened to Pietro okay, but I'm not alone June.". I smile and stare to these people we'll never get back "God I miss her", I let her go, slowly Esther dissolves in thin air. Wanda turns to me and nods <<I know, June. I know>> I let Pietro dissolve too and just cry. This is it, a life without Esther doesn't have to be punishment, it maybe could be a life. Less marvelous than it used to be, but not as dreadful as it is now. Wanda hugs me and for the first time in 3 years I feel safe.

NATASHA'S POV 

Wanda finally enters the kitchen, she looks tired. "Wanda are you okay?" she nods and wipes away another tear "June showed me my brother again, I had an opportunity to say goodbye Nat.". <June did WHAT> "Don't worry Natasha, I asked her to. She also showed me an Esther, we watched them all night. She has a good heart Nat, I can feel it." I smile and nod, I already knew that. I slide a plate of fresh fruit and cereal towards Wanda, she looks so happy and that makes me happy. "I have a meeting with Fury, but it's great to see you like this Wands. I have the feeling she really understands you." Wanda makes herself a cup of tea "Good luck Nat!". I smile the whole way to the office and meet Maria on the way "You are smily today." I nod. "Romanoff, Hill, I'm glad to see you. We are discussing June Caroline Bellini today." I try my best not to laugh at the words Fury got out. "She's dangerous, but could be great to the team. I believe we need her to trust us first, train with you, like a probation period." I nod "Where will she be staying?", Hill immediately thinks about the practical side. "I was thinking with the Avengers, this evening we'll be done with moving to the other compound. She can go with you, we could send some extra agents." I shake my head "No that's fine we can handle it.". Fury nods "Congratulations Romanoff, you can go tell her", the most stupid smile appears on my face as I leave the office. 

June is laying on the floor when I enter "Hey June, wake up. I need to talk to you.", she wakes and rubs her eyes. "Hi, I'm sorry I fell asleep.". She smiles, warmly "Do you remember when you asked me what I wanted? I have decided what I want, this night I spend the night awake with Wanda. In the past people treated me like a weapon, not a person and I'm so sick of it. I want to be someone better, I want to help, maybe learn to trust. Let people love me, love others.". "All that after one night with Wanda?" the smile can be heard through my words, sweetened with the  happiness that swirls in the building today. She starts  laughing, a warm full laugh that fills the room and makes me forget that the same girl punched a wall yesterday. "June, Fury made a decision, he wants you to move in with the Avengers. We're moving this afternoon, what do you think?" her eyes become glossy and she just nods. 

JUNE'S POV

"When will I meet your teammates?" I try not to sound too happy "Now if you want to, maybe find you some clothes first. First impressions are so important.".  I nod and follow Nat to the shower and put on the new clothes, I'm nervous <they'll hate you>, this is going to be hard. "Don't be nervous June, they'll love you." Natasha puts her hand on my shoulder and squeezes it a bit "You look great and everything will be okay.". Nat sounds like I wished my mom did, if I could've chosen one she'd be it. 

I stand in their living room, that slowly fills up with real hero's. "Hi uhm, I'm June Bellini. You know... The prisoner Fury refused to speak about." I giggle uncomfortable with all the attention. "Yes finally, I was wondering when he'd let you go. I'm Tony Stark.", the billionaire sounds so enthusiastic. Wanda walks in "Hi I'm sorry that I'm late, hi June. Has everyone already introduced themselves?", I shake my head "Oh okay, I'll help you out. That's Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes, Bruce Banner, Thor, Clint Barton, Sam Wilson, Peter Parker, Carol Danvers and Scott Lang. I'm sorry if I missed someone.". Okay that was a lot, "Hey Wanda don't overload the poor kid" Steve Rogers smiles apologetically. "We heard you have powers, could you show us?", Banner is a lot different than his alter ego, "You don't have to June" Natasha tries to protect me. I nod, <calm down June you're good at this> "I kind of need someone.", Wanda smiles and takes my hand showing me she can do it. I take a chair and melt through it, standing half in it, half hazy. "Do you have a memory, I'm allowed to use Wanda?" Wanda smiles and nods "Show them last night." Thor starts laughing, not understanding what happened. I take her hand and focus the green bubble swirls into the memory, bright. We are sitting on the floor of my cell, memories and dreams running free, I allow them to see every part, but keep our last conversation for myself. When I'm done the Avengers are looking at me amazed "This really happened?" Tony Starks voice if filled with surprise. I nod and look at the floor, Wanda hugs me "It was amazing guys. June is so powerful, we should train her to use her powers with more confidence.". "Wow that's great. I'm Scott, nice to meet you." <I'm afraid, breathe June, it's okay>  "Hey maybe we could show June around? Or already go to the other compound, I'm done here." Natashas question sounds more like a statement. Tony nods and Nat prepares herself to leave "Well see you later guys, have fun here." she winks and takes my arm. Bucky waves a bit, that's when it hits me, "Soldier?" he just nods "Not the Winter Soldier anymore but yeah.". He looks happy here and he remembers me.