The Lyon For Me

Nine

I got home and I got a text from Keem 'You staying this time' I smiled 'Yes Keem my baby needs a father' I sent rolling my eyes though he couldn't see me. I sat on my bed and I breathed deep I truly want to be with Jamal but I have some things that we need to sort out first.

'I could be a perfect father' I read I was hoping he was joking but I doubted it 'Keem we talked about this what happened that night was a mistake a drunken mistake' I sent. Yes I had sex with Hakeem but only after getting really drunk and stuff because I found out I was pregnant.

It was nice I guess afterwards we talked and became much closer but we... Well I thought we agreed to end it there but he just won't.

I sighed reading his next message 'But why' I chuckled a little 'Because 1) I still love Jamal 2) Your his brother and that's wrong 3) It's just not gonna happen' I said chuckling still. I do still love Jamal and I don't think I'm ready to move on yet.

'Well 1) If you really love him get back with him 2) Move on damn it 3) Who says' I laughed and shook my head 'I'll talk to you later and your right I will get back with Jamal' I sent to him teasingly.

'If you really love him then I guess that is what you should do' that was not the response that I was expecting from him. It made me feel weird like he was right. And he wasn't! What Jamal did was unforgivable or whatever. Ugh my mind is playing tricks on me.

"Jamal I want to see you" I said when he answered the phone. He sounded like he was at the store. I could hear the surprise in his voice "You want to see me" I nodded but then realized I was on the phone.

"Yes" I could feel that he was smiling and that he was already in the car "Well I was coming over anyway but it doesn't matter now" this was crazy I had just hung up with him. The man I swore I'd never forgive.

But the thing is I don't feel bad I'm excited to think about being with him again. To feel him next to me in morning. The thought made me smile. But what made me smile the biggest was thinking about Lola and how happy she'll be..

"Lola baby.." I yelled a couple seconds later she came bouncing in "Go open the door then come here I have a surprise for you" she did as she was told then came back. I sat her on my lap "Where's my surprise" she said cutely I was about to reply when I was cut off by singing.

"And I'm in love with L o l a.... Lola Lola Lola" Jamal sang as he came through the door. I could hear his footsteps coming down the Hall "Look there's your surprise" I said pointing to the door where Jamal was standing.

"Daddy!!" She squealed running over to hug him. I smiled watching them together made me feel so much better about the decision I made. I stood up and cleared my throat "Lola sweetheart can you go into the living room we'll be out in a second" she left and before Mal could say anything else I kissed him.

"I love you" I whispered kissing him again. I didn't want to start with secrets so I pulled away "Mal I have to tell you... In the beginning I made a deal with Lucious to change you in exchange he would let me see my father" he frowned and let go of me.

"Mal you know how much I loved my father but even after I agreed to do it, it was so hard to be with you and you so wonderful to me but I...." He swallowed and looked at me "Anything else" he said unemotionally.

I looked down and cried knowing this would happen "I slept with Hakeem during a drunken night after I found out I was pregnant" the look of hurt in his eyes made me fell so bad about what I've done to him" I looked down and wiped my face of the tears.

"I understand what your going to say I just want you to know I never meant to hurt you so much I just wanted to see my father after all this time" I said leaving him in that room by himself.

I saw Lola playing with her bear and I smiled sadly knowing she would be upset about Mal leaving so soon. I bent down to her level and before I could get any words out Jamal came out my room.

"So ladies I have a question... Would you guys like to come with me to my dad's place I want to ask your mom something and I'm hoping everyone will be there... Seeing how it is the signing thing for my dad's IPO" I smiled going up to him and kissing him.

"I love you what happened before is in the past I want you to know I forgive you OK" he smiled pecking my lips and grabbing my hand. We got in his car and drove to Lucious' place. The thought of being anywhere in the vicinity of Lucious sickened me to no end but I had Jamal and Hakeem so I would be OK.

When we got there a drunken man was knocking things around and yelling at Lucious. I moved Lola behind me walking out of that room to where I saw Hakeem and Cookie.

Cookie smiled at me "Hey baby you ready" she said hugging Jamal. She looked me up and down stopping when she saw Lola "Hey sweetheart" she said smiling at her Lola respectfully waved back as Cookie pulled me away to the side.

"You know I didn't like you... Saw that there was something you were hiding from me... Keem told me what you did... I respect you for that... You did whatever you could for family and that's all I've ever done... Fight for my family" she said looking at her boys talking.

"I'm glad Jamal chose you out of the people in the world he picked good" she said smiling at Lola now. I felt better than I ever have being around the Lyons. I had Jamal and I had Lola. My life....

My thoughts had been disrupted by a man busting in with a gun. Jamal grabbed Lola bringing her over to me then pushing us behind him "Where's my daughter?!?!? Where's my daughter Lucious!?!" He yelled I looked him over my shook almost stopping my ability to talk "Dad?" I asked.